Esp. with all of her friends trying to convince her that I'm just a coward & don't want to dump her straight out, and that's why we're keeping in contact. Basically saying I'm a money-hungry, lying-sack-o-shit. Yeah riiiiight.
Everyone has his/her own way of coping. It may be that, Kelly's way it to dump some of the blame in your name, if there's someone you can blame- getting-over gets easy. It's a kind of guilt-transfer. I guess it works.
If I were you, I wouldn't be too bothered. If all-in-all, the person I'm hurting is less hurt by blaming me- I guess it's a worth trade-off.
Been long that you've not posted. Hope you were doing well!
I think we both know that we are certainly to blame in different aspects, but it just hurts to think that she may be letting these allegations take any heed in her feelings towards me.
& besides that I'm just generally shitty at the world right now, her ever-present doubtfulness is part of what's driving me away in the first place.
'Tis alright in the end, though. I'm always in need of re-validation of my choices. This only fuels my fire.
& on a final note, I have been away alot, but I think once I'm settled into my new place I'll nothing better to do, but peruse lj until I find some friends.. So, enjoy my absence while it's here.
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Everyone has his/her own way of coping. It may be that, Kelly's way it to dump some of the blame in your name, if there's someone you can blame- getting-over gets easy. It's a kind of guilt-transfer. I guess it works.
If I were you, I wouldn't be too bothered. If all-in-all, the person I'm hurting is less hurt by blaming me- I guess it's a worth trade-off.
Been long that you've not posted. Hope you were doing well!
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& besides that I'm just generally shitty at the world right now, her ever-present doubtfulness is part of what's driving me away in the first place.
'Tis alright in the end, though. I'm always in need of re-validation of my choices. This only fuels my fire.
& on a final note, I have been away alot, but I think once I'm settled into my new place I'll nothing better to do, but peruse lj until I find some friends.. So, enjoy my absence while it's here.
Take care, namesake.
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