Comments | avalon_ski_69: Un confortablt sorrow-ful. Wanting to rol the dice jus one more time

avalon_ski_69

Un confortablt sorrow-ful. Wanting to rol the dice jus one more time

Dec 14, 2005 13:52

An Update to my previous entry when I stated that I had no tears and was not able to feel. The exception to this was having to tell my children of their Grandmother passing. It broke my heart telling them of the news. Watchiing the tears sweel their eys shut, until what was left of their vision was redness, and an abundance of tears. They ( Read more... )

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peace2you December 14 2005, 22:56:40 UTC

~Tears! ((huge hugs)) Im so sorry:(

xoraclex December 15 2005, 04:04:13 UTC

*hugs*

priscamor December 15 2005, 14:44:10 UTC

I am crying because that is the most wonderful letter... I am sure she is so proud of you and knows how you felt and feel and the last thing she would want is for you to feel guilt or regret. I am sure she knew why you advised her on things she did not agree with. She knew you loved her. She sounds like such an amazing woman. But I imagine her life was lived as you said, happy and content, and is happy to be in her new home, with no pain, and still able to look after those she loves... :hugs:

avalon_ski_69 January 4 2006, 22:02:49 UTC

This was very sweeet of you to say, Thank You

yummydeb December 19 2005, 20:57:14 UTC

I'm sorry for this awful and huge loss, sweetheart. My dad died at this time of year too, and it seems extra cruel to lose a parent right around the holidays... because it's a terrible loss anyway, and this makes it that much harder.

Your mother sounds special and loving and like a wonderful woman, and it seems like everyone knew it. It sounds like she lived a life full of giving and friendships and love, and it's good to be happy for that, even while you are terribly sad about losing her.

I lost my dad almost 17 years ago, and while I can tell you that the pain does dull a little bit, the loss is always there... but you will go on, and you will smile again, even though it's hard to believe that now. My heart aches for you, for I spent cold December days in tears as well, 17 years ago, and my heart knows some of what your heart feels, during these days.

Hugs to you...xoxo

avalon_ski_69 January 4 2006, 22:05:15 UTC

I have a hard time with my emotions. I try to supress them, putting up shields so people can't see my vulnerabilities. I am experincing allot of guilt currently. Thank You for your words and sentimental thoughts

pasticcio December 19 2005, 21:20:53 UTC

I'm sorry for your loss, hon .. you were lucky to have had the love of a wonderful mother like her in your lives.

*hugs*