I look at my life now, and it's much different then what it was back then. Of course right? I mean, nobody isn't going to be the same as the were a long time ago, and if they were, thats kind of scary ( Read more... )

Well, folks, I've got some good news ( Read more... )

The things that I think in my head, and the things that I sometimes say really did hurt me. My head hurts now, and I'm feeling very tired ( Read more... )

For some reason, I couldn't go to sleep. I want to so bad, but I'm affraid of crying. I'm so tired of sheding tears over and over again. One day I just want to wake up and not shed anything. I'm so tired of tears coming down my face and falling on my lap. Sometimes I can't stand crying because it makes me face look like a squashed tomatoe. I look ( Read more... )

Today is a day that I fill out my finicial aid and fil out the papers for school. Actually I already register for ucc, but I'm changing my class. I decided I'm going to go to school for "Visual Arts Design." I figured I'd do that because I really want to work on my art and I want to get better. Also, one day I want to get rid of all that crap in my ( Read more... )

Right now, I'm listening to this Bjork song, and it's really inspiring me to write this right now. I'm happy that I had a good day, I'm tired as hell, but it's not stopping me from typing this right now. I figured out that, I'm just going to go to a county college, and just transfer over to a school in new york. For a week now, I've been trying to ( Read more... )

You know what, I walked in my job crying, and I walked out of there with a smile. Even though all these emotions are happening, I still held my ground. I'm glad that I bought this little note book for 50 cents. That little ass note book really did help me out. I wrote at least 12 pages in there about how and what the hell I was feeling. I feel so ( Read more... )

Sometimes I didn't want to let things go, no matter how hard it was, I just had too. Looking at the old things set aside, my mind would always skip a beat, but then I would find myself looking back into those black&white days again. Where things were fuzzy, but now they come up in my mind as clear as the sky. I would see the problems almost like if ( Read more... )

I haven't written here in a while, but now I have something to write about today. Right now, I have a headache, and I don't really feel good. You ever saw something like you didn't want to see? Well, yeah I had one of those ( Read more... )

Today was the day that my ex boyfriend came to pick up his ring. His school ring. I had this feeling in my gut that it wasn’t going to be all good as I wanted it to be ( Read more... )