i guess im going to just sit around all day and wait for someone to call
even though i know that they wont

whatever

im leaving this shit town soon anyway

i really am sick of some stuff
im sick of never knowing where i fit in
im sick of not knowing what to expect from you
im sick of not knowing if im waiting for nothing

everytime i really like someone, i fuck it up

im sick of being a fuck up

but i guess thats how it is

i cant help but feel alone

devoid

i wish i could just feel empty, completely without emotion

then maybe this ignoring me that people do wouldnt hurt so bad

maybe...

i think im falling for someone

------------ah damn, not again nigga

oh well, this one is worth it

---------------------- thats what you said tha last time

no really, i mean it this time, you should meet her

she is amazing, really

-------------------well just watch out

dont worry, it is worth it

fuck this

im sick of trying

somehow your words and your actions (or lack there of)

are not quite matching up

hey you

call me

(you know who you are)

as soon as you can, that way i know what im supposed to do today a'dfkl;asdkl;fj

im so sick and tired of people telling me that they want to be my friend and then pulling this shit

thats 2 in one week

fuck this

a;lsdkfa;lkdna;osdifja;ovfao;isdfj

i dont like it

but i have a friend i guess

and that is good enough for now

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im sorry

i just dont know how to feel

i want to

i dont know what i want

actually, i do know what i want, i just dont know if i can have it

im so confused

i just want you to be happy
but i want me to be happy too

but, i want you to be happy more

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