so tons of stuff has happened since the last time I updated. I took care of the thing that was bothering me. I am wondering if that was the right thing to do or not. So my dad had to be in the hospital a lot the last few days and had to have surgery, but he is home and doing good now. I miss a friend of mine. We haven't talked since Monday, ( Read more... )

RRRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I really really need a new way to let out all of my frustration. I had an excellent day at work today, which was great because it took my mind off of things that are not so excellent. I wish that for just one day the world could be perfect for me, or I could be perfect for the world. ( Read more... )

So I think that being grounded is really getting to me. I am completely happy other than the fact that I am not allowed to do anything. I mean, if I were to be allowed to see just a few friends, even if they were just allowed to come to my house, a lot of this pressure would go away. Its just really hard to be able to be nice to your family and ( Read more... )

much better. I just need to scream. I just need to run and scream and cry and yell and thrash around and just let go. My mom got the job, but she decided not to take it. I should be happy, but I don't know what I am feeling. I am excited, and bummed. I am so confused right now. I want to be good news, but I don't know if I am. I want to be ( Read more... )

for some reason today I have had this feeling in the pit of my stomach. I don't know why, and I am so confused. Everything is getting better, and things are ok again, so I don't know why I have this bad feeling. Maybe it is just because I am nervous. I don't know. My mom went to a second job interview today, and she finds out if she got the ( Read more... )

So I have decided that I love summer. I love the sun, the warm, the being able to be me without anyone complaining! I can lay around for hours, write, lay in the sun, and just hang out, and nobody gets pissed. I mean, I still have responsibilities like chores, watching my little brother, and I start work again next week, but its no so bad. I ( Read more... )

well I am back at my moms house, which is a huge relief because I was going insane at my dads. Life still sucks a lot right now, but it will be better soon. I talked to my mom and stepdad and we came up with a deal. If I pay them $300 for the towing of the car and the storage, and accept a two week grounding, then this whole situation will be ( Read more... )

I know that I was going on and on about how people should write happy thoughts in their journals more often, but Claire was right when she told me that sometimes people just need to vent. I realize now that sometimes the only place to do that is your journal. I was having all these excellent things happen to me, and life was excellent. Nothing ( Read more... )

So today was a very relaxing day. I think that is what I love about summer, there are so many fun laid back days where doing nothing is the best thing in the world. I don't know if you anyone else feels this way, but today was an amazing day, and this is all I did ( Read more... )

So I have basically just been trying to make it around school the last few days without getting too tired or feeling too much pain. It was really hard, but I did it, and now it is all over. Today it was nice to just lay on the couch and relax and not have to worry about trying to get around. I don't know how much of it I can take though. I can' ( Read more... )