Rant
Ever feel like you are the loser out of all your friends? Well, that's me right now. A year after graduated, I am still jobless while my friends are all out there - working and earning money as I type this. I hate my life right now. I really do. I've never imagined that someday, I'll be where I am right now.
Another friend is getting engaged and I am really happy for her, I do. Especially since I know what she had gone through. But, a tiny part of me couldn't help but feel jealous of her. She finally getting her happiness and here I am - being a bitter and a loser.
I really want to leave everything and move to another city. I would do that if I haven't thought of my father. He is the main reason I stuck in this lame ass town. Honestly, a part of me resented him and his controlling self for not letting me go to KL when I got the interview. The bad thing about me staying here - with the family is that it just worsen my relationship with my mother. My mom and I rarely on a good terms. There's something that she did that made me dislike her. By being at home, I just noticed more things that made me argue and banter with her. As I am writing this, I haven't talked to her for 3 days now.
Since I am the loser of the group, I really don't wanna meet with my friends. I am dreading the fact that they want to meet up this Saturday and for once, I don't have any excuse to give so that I don't have to meet them.
Another friend is getting engaged and I am really happy for her, I do. Especially since I know what she had gone through. But, a tiny part of me couldn't help but feel jealous of her. She finally getting her happiness and here I am - being a bitter and a loser.
I really want to leave everything and move to another city. I would do that if I haven't thought of my father. He is the main reason I stuck in this lame ass town. Honestly, a part of me resented him and his controlling self for not letting me go to KL when I got the interview. The bad thing about me staying here - with the family is that it just worsen my relationship with my mother. My mom and I rarely on a good terms. There's something that she did that made me dislike her. By being at home, I just noticed more things that made me argue and banter with her. As I am writing this, I haven't talked to her for 3 days now.
Since I am the loser of the group, I really don't wanna meet with my friends. I am dreading the fact that they want to meet up this Saturday and for once, I don't have any excuse to give so that I don't have to meet them.