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[awake_inyou]

i don't know where this entry is about to go or why i feel the need to post huge rants like this so often but it's happening so deal. and knowing myself i'll wake up in the morning wonder what caused me to write this.

i've had it with anxiety. i don't know what to do. in the recent months i've been trying to improve on this so much but i've dealt

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[broknhearts]

I've been there. I know what it feels like. I was made fun of, and girls were horrible to me for years in middle school. And even high school had its ups and downs. All I really can say, is that you know I'm here to talk to always. You can always call me up or anything. And I know this isn't what you're looking for in the moment, but honestly start looking ahead and getting excited for college. Because I know you're going to love it. I'm one hundred times happier now than I was senior year. I think everyone just wants to get out. I love you

[aquirkyalone]

i second rachel's thing about loving college.. it's the chance to start anew and it's just an entirely different environment. high school can be excessively self-contained and i guess that's where the problem lies, less diversity of thought and more mob mentality.

i'm sorry to hear that people treated you so badly in hs. i wouldn't have thought that about you when i first met you; i thought you were like the self-assured "popular kid" in hs (no, i'm not kidding). i guess we're all outsiders in our own way. i was a badass nerd in hs and basically had my inner circle of 6 friends. people probably thought we were losers. whatev.

i hope your trusting situation becomes better.. i know that it's probably one of the hardest things to do; i've been there. it does take time, i believe. but it'll happen. someone once told me: you don't always get what you want, but you'll always end up with what you deserve. and i think you deserve the best. take care of yourself :) xoxo

[just_darkblue]

i'm kind of the opposite. i feel like i had such a good time in high school and i don't know where to go now.

i dunno if good time really translates well. i'm kind of ashamed to say [maybe this isn't even a surprise] i was one of those people who brought other people down. i made alot of peoples lives hell for my own enjoyment. i've seen them at their lowest and i kept going. it was kind of a way for me to deal with break ups and stuff.

i feel really bad that you had to be part of it. and i agree with mao, i always thought you were ms. popular and what not. so you put out a confidence that you may not realize [maybe you do.]

i'm scared every day that i will lose you guys. i don't think that fear goes away when you've been treated poorly in the past. some people are just assholes though. i don't think any of the friends you have right now will turn on you. i think you will be fine. and i love you.

[cheerstar247]

I'm so happy you were able to talk to me about this last night. I know this is cliche but those kids you were friends with before were never real friends. you know that. you probably think your new group of friends is too good to be true, but I really think you have nothing to worry about. you can get past this & have an amazing senior year. I know you can because I am your cheerleader :)

[cheerstar247]

it erased half of my comment!
oh well, wasn't important.
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[maarisssa]

I know I don't really know that much because I just started high school, but I have gone through a lot with the "popular" cliques in middle school. I know exactly how you feel, not knowing what to say and being unsocail-like. For me, after 8th grade my middle school got split up and half went to one high school and half went to another. I'm now stuck at one of the high schools with basically one of my friends from middle school- and i barely see her. I'm also trying to find a new group of friends but as of now im just there chillin with some people who i find very annoying. haha. I really want to find a group of people who are more like me, but it seems like i cant relate to anyone in my school. like kath said, i wouldnt worry about your new group of friends. i hope things are woking outtt :] <3<3

p.s. sorry for writing so much. hahaha.