OK...So it is almost 5 in the morning. I went to sleep around 12am and I woke up around 4:10am. I thought since I was up and all I would have a cigarette and update. I don't like to update that often either because I have nothing to say or I sound like I am bitching and all depressed. Here is a run down on what I have been up to ( Read more... )

I had a good time for new years...It had some bad points...but it was an overall ok experience. I am in a pretty good mood right about now..that might change later....but I am enjoying this. I am kind of bored. I want to go do something soon...Hmmm...I have to do some thinking......Later.

I never knew I could hurt this much and keep on going. God doesn't give you more then you can handle...but he sure pushes it. I hate being this way...all depressed and shit....I want to be happy like I used to be...but that was a long time ago. I am hopeing...waiting....for serenity...peace of mind...a reason to make life worth living ( Read more... )

Today was GREAT! Me and my sister had trouble sleeping last night so we stayed up really late and watched Total Recall. We woke up about 2 in the afternoon and opened presents...Got a lot of cool stuff...Then...as soon as we finished with our presents....There was a knock on the door...it was Jake, Marinda, and Izzy! I thought they were not ( Read more... )

Today was pretty good. Went over my grandpa's house...ate dinner and opened gifts...played a cool game with all my cousins..then went to midnight mass with Steph, Matt, and Ronnie. I haven't been to church in a long ass time...I really don't believe in it...but hey..it's christmas. I hope everyone has a great X-mas....Stay out of trouble!

Yeah.....

It seems to me...when one bad thing happends...another bad thing happends..and another...and another. It does not stop. It is like a never ending spiral. There is a burning feeling deep inside. It melts my flesh and eats at my heart. The pain does not subside until the day is almost over and I cry myself to sleep. I fucked up like I always do ( Read more... )

Well....I am feeling pretty good. I have some stuff I need to finish today...I know I should have done it a while ago...oh well (HAHA!)....Hmmmm chinese food!...I am going to make some in a few.............bloop!

(I know you might be a little scared right now because of the "bloop"...but I assure you it is just in good fun)...heh

Going to see my family....and I don't know after that....have a happy thanksgiving!

hmmm. Kind of tired. I am always tired though....I don't understand why. I woke up at 4 PM today. I have never slept in that late before. It is ok though...If I can sleep in I will because I don't get to very often....I don't have much more to say...Life is alright...Helped someone move yesterday....ok bye.