so much to say just cant find the words.

[awesumamy]

soRRy.

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[usedbacon]

you really shouldn't be sorry. I've realized, I'm at fault. For thinking things that aren't true at all. I want you to be MINE, but I know I can't have that. Sad but true. You won't allow it. I guess it'll be ok. What I really wanted to say, is I'm sorry for allowing your actions to take control of me. I guess it'll be ok. I mean, I'm happy everydamntime I'm with you. Doesn't matter where or when. I'm glad I didn't die before I met you. The time in Don Smith's class, I loved it. I know I probably ignored you alot in there to try to get closer to *thee who ye do not speak of*, and I'm sorry. She was good to me, but you've been such a great friend to me. But now, I don't care, I could go anywhere with you, and I KNOW, I would be happy. Whatever you do, I'm gonna be happy with you. In closing, there's nothing more than I can say, than by saying I love you. And I mean it. They may just be words to you, but trust me, darling, they mean SO much to me. Believe me when I say it. Please

no words to say what i want.

[awesumamy]

i dont know exactly what to say.
why do you say that couldnt ever happen. you need to be positive. a negative attitude is worse then none at all.
if youre so happy when youre with me why dont you show it. you always seem like youd rather be somewhere else with someone else...
whatever happened between you two anyways? you dont seem to hang out with her anymore. jw and all.
how have i been such a great friend if everything i do makes you mad or sad it just doesnt make sense?
how can you say that youll be happy with me always. you dont know what could come along and neither do i.
if you really loved me youd show it instead of makin me read it on lj.
i just dont know what to believe anymore.
♥
the once super duper awesome amy.

Re: no words to say what i want.

[usedbacon]

just believe it. Trust me. It's not hard to do. I find it hard to be positive when all you do is talk about other guys, wishing you had them. I know it may not seem like I'm happy when I'm around you, but I am, except for the past couple days. Zach and Jake make me mad sometimes, and they are probably the best guy friends I've ever had. I have weird ways, that's about all I can say to explain why you are a great friend. I'm pretty damn content that I'd be happy with you always. Don't have a negative attitude :). See that's my problem, showing it. I don't know why. I'm better with words. I wish I was better at showing it. I'm sorry. Just trust me. please.

I don't know what happened between us. I guess she found better friends or something. She said something about needing to hang out with friends of her age...

♥
you're still Super Duper Awesome AMY

Re: no words to say what i want.

[awesumamy]

im sorry that all i do is talk about boys.
im 16 and a girl..
what more is there to expect from me??
i mean seriously.
you always seem bored or pissed off when im around.
maybe its just how i see it but that is so it.
plus you couldnt be happy with me always.
because im a disappointment to everyone.
maybe not 100% of the time
but atleast like 99.9%.
the negative attitude is not helpable.
it comes natural.
ps i could never ever again be the Super Duper Awesome Amy.
and everyone knows it.
♥

[usedbacon]

btw, great song

[awesumamy]

your pick.