The Door is Closed...

[awinedarksea]

I talked to Him yesterday after school. I know I'm keeping him in limbo...and I hate myself for it. I know what limbo is like, and it's the worst sensation in the world. How did I get myself into this? Why did I start walking down that path if it was one I knew I couldn't take? I guess I felt bad after what happened sophomore year...felt regretful

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[envirosprite]

I promise you will be able to let someone in eventually. You let me in, right? The right person just has to come along and then you will want to tell them everything because you know they love you in spite of it all, or perhaps because of it.
And you are definitely NOT a bitch.

[awinedarksea]

Well of course I let YOU in! How could I not? We're like soulmates...Besides, I have an "open door" policy when it comes to friends, especially girlfriends. Maybe I am just fundamentally distrustful of guys. Except Scott. I admit that I am completely and utterly emotionally dependent on him. He's the brother I never had. I realized today that I am going to cry my eyes out when he leaves...When you leave, too...And Maya...

We have to make the most of the time we have. This summer has got to rock!

I love you. I can never be upset when you're around--you never fail to make me feel better. Thank you for that. And for your optimism and your idealism.

P.S.--Don't let me forget to give you that article on sex ed I talked to you about today...