I just don't know what to do some days.
1. My friend sort of bailed on me when she said she would do something. I'm not entirely mad at her, she's had it rough the past couple of years but urgh, she could have been more honest about it. The whole thing mostly worked out but, you know. Then she's been last wording on some stuff. It's frustrating because I feel like I have to explain myself far more explicitly than I really want to when she could just drop it.
2. My boss has been on at me for being scary at work. Well, he's says the kids are finding me scary. I sort of get it, but I also think it's a simple explanation for a complex problem. Sometimes, I'm sure I do come across as scary but he also says that I'm a great teacher. From my perspective it seems like the fact that I put up with zero b.s. in class to the point I will tell kids 'no' or remove stuff from the kids is upsetting them and instead of telling them to stop doing the thing, the manager is all okay, have another teacher. My manager seems to expect me to put up with this crap and let him deal with the problems. That just seems ridiculous to me.
It seems like everyone there is happy to put up with bad behaviour when if they established clear boundaries from the get go, the students would be better for it. With one kid, teachers basically pulled back on writing activities because the kid was uncooperative whereas if they'd been firm about writing at the start, the kid would have sucked it up but they didn't and when the kid got to me and I established boundaries he got mad at me (for that and other reasons, I am now not teaching him). And some of the kids are not good. I've covered some classes recently from other teachers and their students are not good. They rely far too much on Japanese and have noticeable issues with relatively basic things.
I'm looking forward to the day I can get out of there.