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axelified

for theres not much else to say

May 27, 2009 23:13

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anonymous May 27 2009, 23:32:00 UTC

I had an abortion in August and I'm still too afraid to tell my parents.

The baby would have been born April 4th.

I'm pro-choice, but I never EVER thought it would happen to me. I never thought I would be stupid enough to need one. I'm not sure if I'm supposed to feel guilty or not, but one thing is certain: no woman should ever have to go through what I did.

axelified May 27 2009, 23:33:35 UTC

I understand...

a friend of mine in college went through the same thing and I dont think she EVER told her parents. I can't imagine how hard it must be for you, I myself haven't been through that but I know how I'd feel.

I wouldn't personally feel okay with doing it when it came to the crunch /sighs and holds

...do you really feel your parents must know? if you really feel you need to talk about it to someone, perhaps a close friend or even a counsellor?

anonymous May 28 2009, 04:48:31 UTC

I've tried to speak to the father about the matter. He already has one child. His argument was that I wasn't ready for the baby, but he clearly didn't want to be responsible for a child full-time as he barely sees his own daughter.

I feel like my father would cut me off financially... my mother would probably support me, especially since it's been almost a year. Somehow I just feel better knowing that my parents think I'm safe and special and wonderful and would never do something so stupid as to get myself pregnant.

There was also a counselor at the clinic and she gave me a bunch of religious pamphlets telling me that I won't go to hell for doing what I did. I don't think that really helped. I mostly feel bad because I was responsible for starting and stopping a life and he or she had NO say in the matter. So I often just daydream about what kind of person they would have become had I made a different choice.

anonymous May 27 2009, 23:42:57 UTC

I'm sick of being strong. I'm always the strong person who puts up a good, innocent front that lives through downturns as if they're nothing. The truth is, though, that I want to curl up and cry and pretend the world isn't there anymore. I want to be with a certain person and just wrap myself around them and cry into their shoulders, but I can't. I wish there was someone around me now who would sit with me and hold me as I cry, but i know there's not. None of my "real life" (i hate that term) friends would be comfortable enough to hold me as I cry, even the ones I've known for ten years. I hate feeling like this when there are people in the world with worse problems and issues that are more hurtful and life-threatening than mine, but I can't bear it when all I want to do is cry but knowing that I can't because I am far too many people's rock.

anonymous May 28 2009, 01:40:18 UTC

I used to feel the same way. And I'm still in a position where people rely on me to be calm and firm and undisturbed by my work. I always felt like I wasn't allowed to burn out but when it did get to be too much for me, I was stunned and touched by the support from friends I never would have expected it from. In the end it was me who didn't feel comfortable breaking down -- not my friends who were uncomfortable with me.

anonymous May 28 2009, 03:54:40 UTC

I wish I can find a way to stop my constant self-pity. Each time I go to class, go to a lab, do anything, I feel like an utter failure. Why am I taking these classes? What am I doing with my life? Why do I feel obligated to live up to my parents' expectations, when all I really want is a simple life? And why do I keep failing them ( ... )

anonymous May 28 2009, 07:37:02 UTC

I'll never get over him.

Especially with the way we are now.

anonymous May 29 2009, 05:36:51 UTC

Sometimes people on livejournal really fucking suck. Nay, people in general suck but at the very fucking least the one place where I hope to kind of GET AWAY from inconsiderate assholes would be here. I'm not a saint or anything but I wish wish wish certain people at least took a step back and thinks 'hey i'm being a fucking moron' but I guess they're jerks in the first place because they're incapable of doing that.

thanks for hearing me out/