lets see... sooooo i feel...

lost.. idk who i am or where i even belong anymore.
fat.. im not eating very healthy and all i do is lay in my bed
ugly.. because i was left for an ugly obnoxious bitch
alone... everyone seems to have abandoned me or screwed me over and broken my trust. No ones there for me. No one listens. No one cares.
heart broken... she ( Read more... )

why do i always want the things that i know i cant have....? Why do i try and put my all into getting these things when i know its not going to happen... and i just end up getting let down... Like its some big feat i want to overcome.. Like i wanna win at something and feel like i conquered a mission. Except i know i wont. Im always going to lose. ( Read more... )

What you want
What you lost
What you had
What is gone is over
What you've got
What you love
What you need
What you have is real
It's not enough
It’s not enough
It’s not enough
It's not enough, I’m sorry

I wish to feel smaller
under your sheets.
I wish for the whole truth
every time you speak.
I'm thinkin' about how you care half as much for me
While I watch you arrive, smoke cigarettes, sleep...

And I guess it doesn't matter what I say or what I seem
You stuck what I felt for you in the pocket of your jeans
Ignoring me the morning after
isn't ( Read more... )

I had the notion that you'd make me change my ways
My bad habits would be gone in a matter of days
I had the feeling that you'd open up my eyes
To a whole new world that had since been in disguise

But that day will most likely never come for me
And it's just my luck to end up getting stuck
To everything you are

So tonight I'll sit and pick ( Read more... )

Wish I could hold you up, in my arms.
Keep you safe and sound from any harm.
I can't seem to function, from this far away.
And every little moment looks so dull,
without your color in my day.

Oh it feels so good to hear you speak.

This is where I start to miss you, more than I can bear.

I can't believe in anyone but you
I've tried and I've tried, but I can't deny everything you said was true.
I'm drawing my line in the sand.
Because i can't ignore my heart anymore
Stop fooling yourself. Cuz one day you'll be a stranger to everyone else.

They never told us how to deal with heartbreak
Or the days our lives will change.
Hell, ( Read more... )

Case closed ( Read more... )

It creeps in like a spider
Can't be killed, although I try and try to
Well, don't you see I'm falling?
Don't wanna love you, but I do

somehow this keeps getting harder and harder... when its suppose to be getting easier... plah... these next 4 days need to fly by.