Where do you go? When you have no where left to turn?

[aximilij]

I'm cursed.... cursed by my logical mentality.... broken by my fear..... how long can I keep doing this? How long can I handle these things? I play games not because I enjoy them anymore... but because it's all I know. It's the same with reading... my pleasures in life grow smaller and dimmer... I feel no satisification... I grow lonely and weary

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[mokoleena]

I go away for a week and one of my dearest friends goes through massive pain. I'm so sorry, Joshie. I wish I could be there to give you a real hug, because I hate seeing you so sad. I love you so much, dearie, so please don't despair. *hugs*

[aximilij]

it's ok...it's just.... getting harder for me...because no one speaks to me anymore.... and the fact that it's 2 days later and the only one who's posted is you..... it proves to me that i really am starting to lose everyone... and it makesme wonder if i was ever important at all.

[ladygith]

I generally don't post period. I have trouble with it. Besides, no one really needs to hear my blunt answers. No one listens to my advice anyway.

[ladygith]

Oh hell. I'll post my bluntness. You can only find your light within yourself. It is hard and frightening for people like you and I. However, you need to learn that first you only need yourself, not others. Once you find that peace and acceptance, you will find others to share experiences with. Doing so, without peace in yourself, will only lead to more darkness and pain. It will push people away if you become too comfortable with self mourning.

Overall, I'll tell you again to seek a therapist.. and be OPEN and HONEST about your thoughts and feelings to them. I see one. If you don't try to fix yourself and your life, then there is no point in others giving a hand. It only proves that you prefer to survive alone and in the dark.

[aximilij]

Thanks for posting ^^; this was an older post but thanks. I like to think I'm doing better than when I made that post, but maybe not. Either way in the end I guess i'm doing ok. Happy holidays and i wish you the best.

[ladygith]

I don't read posts on a daily basis. I should, but I don't.