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[aximilij]

You know.... I think I've come to realize something today... I'm having a little trouble putting it into words really. I feel as though I lack something, something essential to the way this life is supposed to work. All that governs me these days is logic. So often I don't feel anything, I'm so incredibly apathetic about life it's I find myself

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[lonelycheese15]

I'm having the same problem.
My boyfriend keeps getting on me about not being open enough, but when people ask advice and stuff, one of my main solutions is to be open with one another. But I can't do it. And like you, I read things about the emotions I'm suppose to feel. The only time I ever feel these emotions is when I'm reading or watching a movie. Only in the fictional world do I feel emotions. When it comes to real life, I can't feel anything. That causes more than one problem with my boyfriend and I... but I've gone my entire life trying to control my emotions and keep from feelng...and now that I REALLY want to, I can't. I mean...I have feelings but...I don't express them and sometimes they're inappropriate for the occasion. I don't know....

[aximilij]

What you should do is tell your boyfriend exactly what you told me. If he understands, he understands, if not then it wasn't meant to be anyways. I think maybe if you can start openly discussing your lack of feeling it might lead way to a closer bond with your significant other. And closer bonds usually result in more intense feeling and maybe that'll be just enough to push you over your little block ^^. Good to know I'm not an alien though :: lol :: ^^

[lonelycheese15]

lol Actually, telling you what I told you inspired me to write him a letter.
If you were an alien, I'd have you move in with us. That would be fucking awesome! =P

[aximilij]

:P I bet

[violentdragking]

Oh, pish. Everyone's different. Some are like me, like you said, governed by emotions and all crazy. (Well, I'm crazy anyways.) But there are people like you who are logical, and there's nothing wrong with that. (I'm not sure it isn't better...) So try not to worry about being like everyone else. It's overrated. I like you just like you are.*hugs*

[psychobuns]

For as long as I've known you, you've been more logical than emotional Joshie. Even those times where drama got the best of us, you still remained the most logical and also the most dettached from the situation, which can be a good thing in and of itself

[chic_urbanity]

"Have you ever felt,
That something, is missing,
Within your soul..
You want something more..
but you don't know what for?

There is only one you need..
But you've got to believe..
That He loves you,
Enough to give His life."

A lot of people are at the same sort of crisis you are...it's typical of the growing-into-adults phase of teenage life. I'm always here for you though. =) REMEMBER TO TALK TO ME ON MSN MORE! XO Hahahaha.. =)

[chic_urbanity]

By the way, what I quoted is a song called "Reborn" from Rebecca St. James...

[mokoleena]

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v337/Mokoleena/nothinglefttofear.gif

Go look at that. You need this icon. It's pretty, and it reminds me of you.

*hugs* Love you Joshie.

[aximilij]

awww ^^ did you make that for meeee?

[mokoleena]

Sadly, no, I wish I could have made that, but I saw it and had to steal it for you. I'm not sure who made it. *sheepish*

[aximilij]

i still love it ^^ i was looking for a new one! hehehe, but i'm hoping for a gracie made one someday. :: nods ::