{fic} Akame_het Challenge - # 010 Night JIN's POV

Sep 21, 2009 22:52

Title: Night - JIN'S POV
Prompt Number: # 010 Night
Author: ayakanishi
Rating: SAFE!
Warnings: THEY'RE NOT MARRIED!!!
Summary: They thought their marriage to other person will help them move on and forget about each other. But they were wrong; every night, they dream about each other; every day they think about each other; they still love each other.

It's been ten years since we last talked as lovers; ten years since we broke up. I'm happy in my life as a father of two now, but... I can't really be happy with Megumi. I can't be as happy like when I was with you. She's trying her best to be the best wife ever. She's giving all what she got; I know it's more than enough and it's what every man would dream of. She's aware of my feelings for you, she knows that I still love you.

Yes, I love her, but not as much as I love you. I don't want to leave her, I don't want to hurt her. Megumi made me feel alive again since we broke up. That time, I already thought of committing a suicide. But she stopped me, she embraced me and comforted me. Most of all, she loved me more than anything else.

I tried to love her back. To return the love that she's giving me; it's not enough. I don't love her enough to compare my love for you. I'm happy that she's with me; happy that she's by my side to support me. She's by my side whenever I'm crying because I damn miss you so much. Kazu... she loves me so much. But... what will I do, you're still the love of my life.

I thought my life would be so simple like this: Megumi as my loving wife, Ryuu(7) and Kyuu(6) as our sons. Those two always dreamed of being detectives. We smile every day, we're happy. If you would look at us, we're like the perfect family that everyone wants to be. But behind those happiness, there's always sadness. Every night, I always dreamed of you. I always say your name while sleeping. Megumi told me that. I know it hurts her so much but she kept on understanding me.

One night, my life changed so much. I saw you at downtown Kazu. You were walking with your child and husband. I would like to talk to you again. Just to embrace you will satisfy me Kazu, but I can't. I was hoping that you would notice me but you failed. So I hid myself in the dark and watched you as you dispappeared from my sight. You look so happy now Kazu; I must not destroy your happiness. There's just one thing I don't know: why does my heart hurts when I saw you holding hands with him? It shouldn't be right? Cause I already accepted the fact that we're not together, but it still hurts me.

When I went home I told Megumi about it. She got mad at me because I didn't even gave an effort to approach you or even say "Hi" to you. Do you think I should have approached you? She didn't talk to me the whole night and called me an idiot for letting you go again without me doing anything. Why is she like that? Why does she kept pushing me to you? Does Megumi not love me anymore? Is she trying to provoke me to leave her? Is she cheating on me? NO! Megumi would never do that. I trust her, though I don't love her that much, but I believe her.

The next morning, after sending the boys to their school, I talked to Megu and apologized to her. I also asked her why is she pushing me to you. She said that she wants me to be happy. She told me to get you back and she won't mind as long as I'm happy. Can I do that? Can I hurt her just to be with you? I don't even know if you want to be back to me Kazuya. So I decided not to. I'm contented to what I have now, to have Megumi as mine.

A month passed by, Megu kept on coming home late. I asked her why but she just said she had overtime. But one night I really got worried so I called her office and found out that she left two hours ago. I panicked and kept on asking myself where on earth is she. I called her phone but only voice mail is answering me so I left a message to her that she should call me back once she got my message. I ran out of house to search for her. Megu was no where to be found. I called home and Kyuu answered the phone. He said that Megu's already home. So I drove back to our house in a rush and shouted her name. Damn I got worried.

She told me that she went overtime again. But this time I already spoke. I told her that I called her office a while ago and they said that she already left two hours ago. Then Megumi kept quiet; so quiet that I can hear her heart pounding. Megu's nervous. I asked her if she's cheating on me and she denied it. I know she's telling the truth. Megu will never lie to me.

Suddenly, Megumi spoke. She told me everything that she's been stalking you for a month and wanted to talk to you. But she never had a chance. I asked her why. She said that she just wanted to know if you still love me. I asked her if she found out something. Then she said that she noticed that you were crying every night to your husband and she found out you husband's name, and even your child's name: Kazuma is your child and Kinta is you husband.

Megumi told me everything she found out and her theory. She told me that she thinks that you still love me. She said that the reason why you always cry is because of me. So she encouraged me to talk to you; to settle everything, once and for all. She gave me your cell number and your address.

The next night, I went to your house as what Megumi instructed me to do. I'm so nervous. I don't know what your reaction will be if you see me now. I took a deep breathe. Megumi will kill me for sure if I went back home without doing anything; she even threatened me that she'll throw me out of the house if I come back empty-handed. So I decided to finally ring the doorbell. Your son, Kazuya came to open the door for me. He immediately asked who am I and who do I need. So I told him that I need to talk to his mother.

Kazuma ran back to the house and called you. When you came out of the door I was so happy to see you again. Then, I saw your reaction Kazu, you were surprised to see me. But I can't figure you out; are you angry, sad or happy to see me? So I just said "Hi,".

You invited me inside and even offered me to sit. Then you told Kazuma to go to his room for we need to talk about something important. Kazuma obediently followed you. When we were already alone in the living room, then area was covered with silence. I don't know what to say. I think you noticed how blank I am.

You suddenly said, "How are you doing?"

So I answered it and told you that I'm doing fine. Then I asked the same question to you. You paused for a bit and finally answered me that you're happy. Hearing that from you also made me happy. I'm just wondering why can't you look into my eyes Kazu. Silence overcame us again. This time, I'm the one who tried to speak but you spoke first.

"I saw you at the downtown a month ago" you said.

Eh? She saw me? But... I thought I hid myself perfectly.

"What's your reason for not approaching me? You didn't even say hello to me" I saw your eyes starting to water as you spoke these words.

"Because... you look so happy, I don't want to ruin your happiness" is what I answered. Is my answer right? I hope so.

"You really think so that I'm THAT happy?" you suddenly asked.

"Well... you look like one"

"Still an idiot as before Jin... you didn't notice it! You didn't notice that I stared at you! Waiting for you to talk to me!" then you started crying Kazu... It hurts me a lot to see you crying. And just like before, my initial reaction is to embrace you, and I did.

"I'm so sorry for being an idiot Kazu... my deepest apologies" then I unconsciously tightened my embrace to you.

But suddenly, you pushed me away. I was shocked of course and then I apologized again. You said that it was wrong for us to act like this. Yes Kazu, you're right, since we're both married now. But I still love you Kazu. You're still the one that owns my heart.

A few moments later, you told me to go home since you husband, Kintarou or Kinta, will be home soon, you also said that we forgot what happened today and pretend as if nothing happened. So then, I left. I didn't went home right away. I still don't want to; I want to be alone for a while and think about stuffs. Think about me, you, Megu and our families, everything. Hours passed by and I'm still not going home. Megu kept on calling my phone but... I don't have the strength to talk to her for now. I know she will be worried but, I just can't. So i left her a message to not be worried about me and I'll be home late.

After thinking so much, I understood that you're right Kazu. We're both married now and we have our own families. We can't have any affairs since it's totally wrong. We also need to think about our children's future and most of all, our spouse. I decided to go home. Megu was at the doorway waiting for me in the called. It's the middle of November now so the surrounding's getting colder and colder each day. I smiled at her, and ran to her, then, I embraced her really tight.

Then I said, "Thanks Megu, I love you" I felt as if it was the first time I told you that, the first time I ever said it with my heart. "I'm sorry if I made you worry" I apologized.

Then you told me that it's okay and inivited me inside to eat dinner. Ryuu and Kyuu also welcomed me. They ran to me and both hugged me. Yes, I'm happy with this family. With my very kind and understanding wife and my two adorable sons; I love them.

I saw Megu smiling at us as she was watching us. I hope she felt that this time, I really meant what I said, that I love her. I do love her. It might be not enough to compare for my love to you, but I love her. I'm really lucky to have her.

That night, when Megu and I were about to sleep. I hugged her from her back while we were lying on the bed. She asked me if there's something wrong and I answered none. She faced me and looked right into my eyes as if she was trying to say something. I kissed her passionately, putting all what I have and all my love for her in it. But... she stopped me. I asked her why.

She answered, "Jin, this is wrong"

"Why? You're my wife. How come it's wrong?" I asked.

"Yes, I'm your wife in paper but... I'm not the one that you love Jin."

"Megu... I love you. and I meant it, " she was silent, so I decided to talk more, "after my talk with her, I realized that... I do love you, I know it's not enough to what you are giving to me, but Megu I really do love you"

"Jin, I know that, and I know how much you also love Kazuya. You've been a good husband to me, and a good father to Ryuu and Kyuu. You're trying your best to make us happy, and I really appreciate that. But Jin, we're the only ones who are happy, not you. You also need to be happy after all these years Jin."

When she said that, I know there's something. I felt sad, I'm afraid to ask what she meant., but I also felt that I have to, so I asked, "W-what do you mean Megu?"

"Jin... while you were away, I talked to his husband too..."

"What?"

"We decided to... both let you go, for your happiness."

"But Megu?!"

"Kazu still loves you Jin, Kintarou told me. The reason that she's crying every night is because of you Jin. She misses you so much. Kazuya tells everything to Kintarou and he's been very understanding to her. And like me, he's also aware of his wife's love for you. Jin, you should go get her. She's yours now." she smiled at me Kazu, a very sweet and loving smile.

I don't know what to do, I kept silent for a minute, and asked once again, "How about Ryuu and Kyuu?"

"You can visit then every time you want. And... I'll try to explain it to them. Just leave everything to me, okay?"

"Demo..."

"Just go get her, she might be waiting for you now"

"Megu... I... remember that... you will still and always be here in my heart, I love you and.. thank you" I kissed her for the last time and left.

I ran as fast as I can. I want to see you Kazu... to be with you... after running so much, I saw you, also running towards me. I can see your breath. Then you smiled.


KAME'S POV


A/N: so, how was it? This should be a multi-chap fic, maybe this'll be the preview for he multi-chap fic I will be posting. But that fic will be WAY far from now... so, gomen...>_< I'll post Kazu's POV next...:D if ever I have a muse, hehehe!!!

comments are loved...:D

fic: night, akame, one-shot

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