back to basics and guilt

[ayamaoko]

A venting journal, i think you're probably used to this by now.

I wonder now-a-days what is it about myself that's so horrid.  It seems over and over I'm continuously brought into a situation where my actions involuntarily cause turmoil in those around me.  Close friends are wounded by simple things I say, and those who dislike me in the

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[orion_nightbane]

lol... u're responsible for nobody's actions. don't let anyone sway u to think that u were.

[ayamaoko]

i wish it was that easy. I don't understand why me saying someone is cute is harrassment... or that me stating that I'm worried about people who don't like me causing problems (cuz they kept causing problems with me anywho outside of it) that a close friend of mine started hurting herself and everyone starts blowing up at me and yelling at me when i didn't even know that it'd even happened.

*slumps against*

[orion_nightbane]

now... all that is just kinda weird/confusing. i know of pple who cut themselves, but yeah... we do try to talk them out of it or see if they even want help/want to talk about their problem/whatever..... but ultimately it's their choice, so yeah... they're pretty much the only ones that can drag themselves out of it. if they're pinning their hopes on someone else to save them/be their knight in shining armour or what not... well... i've gotta say it's not gonna happen. then......... yeahhhhhhh they i guess will go to shit but it'll all depend on the person... they just need to realize some things. and u not knowing that ur friend is cutting/doing whatever self hurt... i'd say it's ok. i think those that blew up maybe were stressed out too? *shrugs* but fuck if i know.

and i don't think that calling pple cute is harassment. but whatever, maybe america works differently. who knows man? lol. wellllllll yeahhhhhhhhhh i guess that's all i've gotta say atm. =) take care yeah? at least try to.