Dreaming [Oneshot]
~Dreaming~
Nature itself seemed in commiseration with my dreary thoughts. Another cloudy day of listless wandering through unrelenting stillness had passed without my knowledge; it was nearly midnight when I finally boarded the train to return home. I knew where I was going, but still, I was lost. Lost in life, without a purpose to live.
How often have you ever heard that drab before?
But I wasn’t self-pitying. Rather, I simply knew I had no real reason to look forward to life. And I accepted this. I knew I had no future. My future had already been decided for me, by people and factors that were completely out of my control. All I had left to do now in life was wait, and eventually, everything would just fall into place.
Or so I was told.
I didn’t really mind being told what to do. At some point in my childhood, I had begun to realize it might just be better this way. I would never have to worry about making my own decisions; I would never have to consider the consequences of my actions, because no matter what I did, nothing would change.
I would still be the me I was told to be.
Sighing, I sat down at an empty seat near the back of the train. There were few passengers riding with me this late at night. An elderly woman sat across from me, dressed in all black. A middle-aged man sat at the front of the train, his eyes buried, staring down intently at the screen of his phone.
It was nothing new. Content with my settled surroundings, my thoughts began to drift. I reminded myself of why I was trapped. Why I had been deprived of a future. The grey skies suffocated my soul. I reminded myself of how I was so useless. So powerless.
“May I sit here?”
I looked up, torn from my thoughts, surprised to hear a soft voice addressing me in the middle of the ride. And through those four simple words… we met.
He was a boy. He was young, beautiful, filled with potential. Unlike me. I nodded as an answer to his effortless question. My lips failed to utter a word. I was unworthy to speak with someone like him. I was nothing, but he… he could be anything he wanted.
As time passed, his eyelashes began to flutter lazily, closing ever so slowly as sleep overcame his fragile, untouched mind. His head leaned gently onto my shoulder, and my body shivered as he made contact. A smile curled onto his lips.
I turned away.
The scattered trees spouting from the landscape just beyond the window flew by as the train clacked, riding along the tracks. Its uneven jolting matched perfectly with the rampant beating of my clenched heart.
I didn’t even know who he was, but with four words, he had stolen me away.
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A/N: Probably too short to be a oneshot, but it doesn't matter to me. This is just something I made up, feelings lost myself these days.. I had imagined a pairing for it at the begining, but really, this could be written for anyone.
One day, I just hope to find myself like he did.