Just Venting

[ayelillee]

So tonight is the second evening shift of my set.  Yesterday was a rough one since I didn't get the chance to sleep during the day.  Today  was going fine (despite the lack of sleep) until I got to work.  I have to confess I was feeling quite proud of myself.  After working a 12 hour shift  last night I got home around 6:30 in the AM

To the normal

Comments

[skip_to_fiona]

I do not envy you doing shifts at all. I'm such a creature of habit that I know I couldn't do it.

As for the rest... have you spoken to your other half at all about how you feel? It seems very unfair how he's treating you. Its not always a great idea to bottle these feelings up.

[ayelillee]

Things were better by the time I got home. I was/am still hurt but he made a feeble attempt at an apology and I let it go. I usually just blow up and make things worse so holding things in is a new approach for me and to tell the truth I don't like it much. I know we really need to sit down and talk, but the biggest problem other than the lack of quality time together is that his brother moved in last October "temporarily" and is still sleeping on my couch. I do not see him moving anytime soon and I am stuck with risking my relationship (which was fine until the brother came) by putting my foot down and making him leave or letting things be and hoping a favorable outcome. Both situations are hard on us as a couple. I just really don't know what to do and very much need a way to vent without taking it out on my man. Sometimes I feel as if his anger and frustration with his brother is being directed at me without him seeing it. Oh well, questions, questions. Thanks for the comment. It made my venting feel less "useless" and gave