ugh, feeling yucky.
i think i caught what my mommy had.
yuck.
On Death and Dying: This quiz is only meant to be a tool to examine or discuss your own relationship with death or the role that death or its concept has played in your life. If you feel uncomfortable answering some questions or find a question boring, you do not need to answer. Please be as vague or as detailed in your answers as you want to be. If you feel there are more interesting questions not addressed in the quiz, please add them.
One: What was your closest personal experience with death?
My Poppop.
Two: Have you ever known someone who's died?
Unfortunately.
Three: Have you ever come close to death?
Umm, not in reality. But in my dreams, I die a lot.
Four: Have you ever thought you might die?
Of course.
Five: Do you make a meaningful distinction between death and dying?
Yes, one is final.
Six: Have you ever wanted someone (including yourself) to die, for even a moment?
Yes. Not for another person, because even if I hate them they have the right to live. But, I'm pretty sure most teenagers have thought of offing themselves.
Seven: What are your thoughts on the afterlife?
I have two. One, everyone goes to this parallel universe that's just like earth... only like on pluto or something. Two, we all go into the ocean.
Eight: How do you conceptualize the relationship between life and death? Do you think of them as having a purpose or meaning?
You live life, then you die. The end. You can't be living when you're dead, or dead when you're living. Etc.
Nine: When has your own mortality been most tangible to you?
Airplane, turbulance, no fun.
Ten: Are you afraid of death?
No. I just hope the dying part isn't too painful.
Eleven: Have you ever thought someone you knew might die? How did you react?
Yes. I constantly have horrible scenarios play out in my daydreams or real dreams. I often cry.
Twelve: What, for you, is the most unnerving thing about death? Is the most unnerving thing different if it's your death as opposed to someone else's?
The losing part. It's different when someone dies, as opposed to just leaving. Because when they die there is no chance of them coming back. That just upsets me to no end. I don't care about me dying, but I'll feel eternally sorry for those I leave behind.
Thirteen: How do you suppose facing the possibility of death has affected you, or might affect you, or might affect others?
I've accepted death.
Fourteen: What does it mean to you to "face" death?
It means that moment where you're pretty sure there's no going back.
Fifteen: How do you think about or define death?
When your heart stops beating.
Sixteen: Do you ever think about how you'll die? What do you think or hope?
I think I'll die young.
CIRCLE ONE: THE OUTSIDE
1. What's your name: Aynsley.
2. How tall are you: 5'8"
3. What color are your eyes: green.
4. What color is your hair: blonde.
5. Are you Male or Female: female.
6. What is your best feature (physically): boobs, hair.
7. What's your shoe size: 11.
8. Glasses, yes or no: yes.
9. Did you ever have braces: fuck no.
10. On a typical day you are wearing: jeans and band tee.
11. When you go to bed you're wearing: undies and a shirt.
12. work out/exercise about how often: rarely.
CIRCLE TWO: MUSIC
1. Name five of your favorite bands: say anything, two tongues, brand new, nirvana, and death cab.
2. Name five of your favorite singers: kate nash, kate voegele, kaylyn marie, m.i.a., fiest.
3. Name three songs you are currently playing nonstop: yea yeah- matt&kim, daylight- matt&kim, show me what you're looking for- carolina liar.
4. Name one song (give lyrics) that best describes your life right now: "i think i'll try to medicate this rage."
5. Name one song (give lyrics) that best describes your life one year ago: "search for love, the love i lack."
6. When you're driving, what are the preset stations on your radio: 100.1, 101.1.
7. What's the last CD you bought: two tongues. [: [: [:
8. Was the last CD you burned an actual CD or a mix: mix.
9. Name one song/band/singer you're embarrassed to like but do: mcfly.
10. If you could only attend one concert ever again, it would be: say anything.
11. Name one band/singer you absolutely can't stand: hannah montana.
12. Name a group you use to like but feel you've grown out of: godsmack.
CIRCLE THREE: MOVIES/TELEVISION
1. Name your favorite actor: hugh laurie.
2. Name your favorite actress: diana keaton.
3. Name your favorite television show right now: ncis.
4. Name five really cool movies you've recently seen: boy's don't cry, i'm not there, nick and norah's infinite playlist, everything is illuminated, and ironman.
7. Name one movie you wish you hadn't wasted time/money on recently: carrington, but it was for school.
8. You would never watch a movie with: anyone i don't like.
9. Favorite candy/food to watch movies with: popcorn and chocolate covered raisins.
10. Three favorite tv channels: food network, disney, the channel with ncis.
11. Favorite reality show: food network challenge!/ace of cakes.
12. Favorite character on a reality show: ben and geoff from ace of cakes. [:
CIRCLE FOUR: WORD ASSOCIATION
(Write the first word/thing/person that comes into your head when you read this word:)
1. coffee: orgasm.
2. dog: harry!
3. slut: a person who i can't say on the internet.
4. candy: gram!
5. pole: dancer. [dirty mind, eh?]
6. ocean: meh.
7. brave: new world. [ i didn't even like that book, what the hell.]
8. loving: people.
9. cookie: monster!
10. death: final.
11. life: is living.
12. child: ahh!
CIRCLE FIVE: WHICH WOULD YOU PREFER:
1. Ten guilty men go free OR One innocent man goes to jail for life: well, i don't want that innocent man to go to jail for life, so i'd fight til i got him out.
2. Eaten by a lion OR Eaten by thousands of small insects: lion. but, i'd tame it so it would love me, not eat me.
3. A life of contentment without love OR A life with love and heartache: love and heartattack. it's better to have love and lost, than not love at all.
4. Skydiving from a plane OR Bungee jumping off a bridge: bridge.
6. No television OR No music: television.
7. No more pizza, ever OR No more chocolate, ever: pizza. i mean, everyone needs their emergency woman chocolate.
8. A trip to Europe OR a trip to Hawaii: europe.
9. An hour with your future soul mate OR An hour with a lost loved one: loved one.
10. No longer being able to cry OR No longer being able to feel the need to cry: that's a hard one. because not needing to cry would mean no misery, and you can't have the good without the bad. otherwise the good is just mediocre. but, if you can't cry, you can't let all the emotions out. and sometimes you just need that.
11. Sex without love OR love without sex: love without sex. of course, really one could just be a nun.
12. Loving someone who doesn't love you OR being loved by someone you don't love: loving someone who doesn't love you.
CIRCLE SIX: THE LOVE LIFE
1. Are you currently in a relationship: nope.
2. Are you currently looking/interested in someone: cute curly haired boy.
3. Are you a virgin: yeah.
4. If yes, how long do you plan to be one: i don't know.
5. How many times have you been "in love": "in like," once.
6. Looking back, how do you feel about that person(s) now: we're friends, whatever. but, i was talking to xiao, and i realized that he didn't really deserve the amount of time i let my heart long for him.
7. Name three things (physically) you look for in someone: hair, back/arms, smell.
8. Name three things (mentally/emotionally) you look for in someone: music, beliefs, word i can't think of right now.
9. Biggest turn offs include: cocky, rude, asshole, etc.
10. Your ideal date would be: JOHNNY from because i said so. guitar lessons and and and cuteness.
11. You want to get married, where, when, how: maybe. outdoor. future. if i'm in love.
12. Does anyone have feelings for you right now that you don't return: i have no idea.