Out Of This Loneliness World
Title: Out Of This Loneliness World (Based on Super Junior - Endless Moment)
Pairing: HaeHyuk
Genres: Romance, Smut
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: I don’t own them but I own this fan-fiction. Donghae owns Hyukjae and Hyukjae owns Donghae
Summary: Can I get out from this loneliness world? Can someone bring me out from this loneliness world?
A/N: Once again, HaeHyuk’s fan-fiction from me. OMG! I want to write EunHae but I don’t have any idea because my mind is full of HaeHyuk. *Mianhae* By the way, this is my first songfic. Can I consider this as a songfic? Enjoy!
Life is so unfair, at least for me. Everything, everyone is so unfair for me. Why I could not have a better life like other people? I was born into this world without parents who would take care of me. I was born into this world without a sibling who would play with me. I own nothing. I am alone. I just own my life.
I just wanted a new life. I just wanted to get out from this miserable world. I have been living in this fucking world alone for 24 years. I am really tired and I could not take it anymore. I just hoped someone who is really kind, someone who would love me, someone who would take care of me, would bring me out of this world. The world that full of loneliness because I am alone and nobody love me.
As usual, I walked silently at the dark street. It is almost 4 in the morning when I finished my work. I worked as a bartender at one of the famous night club in Seoul. I have been working there since I was 17 years old and most of the customer that went to that club knew me. Yeah, mostly a pervert old man.
I hate this life but what could I do? I have to work to get money to life.
In this cold world, I lived without anything of special value.
I couldn’t help but cry when I walked at the dark streets.
Working as a bartender not as easy as you thought, not when you are pretty and every pervert man wanted to touch you. I got used to this situation even it was annoying. They were grabbing my butt, touching my pretty face or sometimes pushed me to the toilet and tried to kiss me. Well, they never have a chance to kiss me because I would push them away. Everything was usual although I hate it.
I did not want their dirty hands touched my body, but I could not mad at them. I could only run away or avoided them. Sometimes, I felt like a stupid.
“Hey pretty boy” there was a man greeted me as I enter the men’s room.
I ignored him and walked to the sink to wash my shirt which was wet and sticky because there was a drunk guy spilt the alcohol to me. I noticed that guy came closer to me, so close that our face just a few inches apart.
He grabbed my wrist and forced me to look at him. “How dare you ignore me?” he said.
“I’m sorry” that the only word I could give right now.
“I won’t accept it” he paused and smirked. “But, if you do it with me, I’ll forgive you” he continued as he nibbled my earlobe.
I was so shocked and pushed him aside. They could grab my butt or touched my face, but did not dare to use your ugly tongue on my body! It was eww, disgusting! I tried to run away but he was really fast as he grabbed my wrist and pushed me to the wall before pressed his body to me.
“I’ll make sure you enjoy this” he said sensually to my ear.
I was struggling to escape from this pervert man but every time I fought back, he would slap my face or punched my stomach. I told you, that hurt like hell!
“LET ME GO!” I shouted and not long after that, another slapped approaching my face.
The guy punched my stomach, hard and caused me to fall on the floor as I clutching my stomach.
“Now, shall we start our party?” he said and captured my lip with his.
My eyes widened and my body was stiffed. I did not know how to react or what to do. My body was so hurt. I could feel his hand wandering under my shirt, touching and massaging my nipple. I wanted to shout but he kissed me, swallowing all my shouted and gasped.
Tears started to fall down from my eyes. I was so scared. Someone, please help me!
“Well, well. What do we’ve here?”
Our attention turned to the guy who was standing in front of the door. Should I ask him to help me? The pervert guy was so shocked and quickly got up from my body. He tried to run away but the man blocked his way before punched his face, with his powerful strength. The pervert guy immediately fainted.
I was so relief but I could not stop tearing. That man was panicked as he saw me kept crying non-stop. He approached me, sat down beside me and asked me if everything was ok.
“Are you all right? Did he hurt you?” he asked worriedly.
I just shook my head.
The man hugged me tightly and to my surprised, I did not push him. I just let him hugged me because I felt really save on his embrace.
“Shh... You’re ok now. Don’t cry” he coaxed as patted my head lightly.
I managed to calm down and I did not realise how long I have been on his embrace. “I’m sorry” I said.
He raised his eyebrows and looked at me confusedly. “Why?”
“I don’t know”
He sighed and got up before offered his hand. I grabbed his hand and stood up too.
“By the way, I’m Lee Donghae” he introduce himself.
“Lee Hyukjae, but you can call me Eunhyuk”
I’ve been waiting for you for a long time,
For someone who’s just like me,
I want give my loneliness to you,
My endless moment, I pray for you.
It has been 6 months since I knew Donghae. Every night he would come to the club and waited for me to finish my work before sent me home. He is my best friend right now. I felt so guilty because he has to wait for me every night. Every time I told him that was ok for me to go home alone, he would say “It’s too dangerous for you to go home alone although you’re a man”.
He became overprotective on me. Not that I complained, I just felt guilty and at the same time, I felt so glad because there was a guy who wanted to take care of me.
Without he knew, I started to fall in love with him. I love everything about him. I tried to tell him but I am too afraid I would lose a good friend like him. So, I just kept this feeling alone. I felt so happy every time I met him, it is worth to be his best friend.
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“Neh Hyukkie”
“What?”
“I want to tell you something but promise me you won’t laugh”
I stared at him. “Ok, I’ll try” I said and stuck my tongue.
He took a deep breath and said, “I think I’ve fall in love”
At that moment, my heart broke into a piece. My body was trembling, my hands were shaking, my head was spinning. I felt so hurt. I did not want him to see me like this. I have to act cool. Relax, Lee Hyukjae!
“Oh really?”
“Yeah, I want to confess to him”
“So, just do your best” I said. Jeez, why did I give an advice to him? Wait! Did he just say him? “Him?”
He nodded. “Well, I’m a gay. Didn’t I tell you that?” he grinned.
I shook my head. If I knew you are a gay, I have confessed a long time ago. Stupid Hyukjae! You were too late!
“Do you’ve any suggestion on how I shall confess to him?”
I shrugged my shoulder. Really, I did not want to help him. I love him! How could I teach him how to confess to his crush? I looked at the other side, avoided making an eyes contact with him.
“Hyukkie, are you ok?” he asked.
I am not ok, you idiot! I love you. I wished I could say that. “Yeah, I’m ok”.
“What’d you think if I kiss him before I confess to him? Good idea right?”
I nodded. I really could not take this anymore. If he kept talking to me like this, I am sure I would end up crying in front of him.
“Hey Hyukkie, can you look at me for a while? Why do you keep looking at other place when I’m talking to you?”
Oh Hae, I could not look at you right now. Please do not force me.
“Hyukkie, please~” he begged and I could sense he was pouting and gave his adorable puppy-fishy eyes right now.
I sighed, took a deep breath and turned to look at him. “Wh...” My word was cut by his lip that pressed to mine. It just a quick pecked but enough to make me blinked my eyes. Did he just kiss me? What did that mean? Why did he kiss me? There were too many questions in my mind right now.
“Why?” I asked him after a long silent.
“I love you”
Did I mishear something? Did he just say that he love me? Oh, I must be dreaming. Wake up, wake up, wake up, Hyukjae yah!
“Hyukkie, what’re you doing?”
“Try to wake up from my dream?”
I heard he chuckled. He leaned closer to me and once again, his lip met mine. This time, more passionate, long, sweet and wet. I did not do anything and let him kissed me.
He broke the kissed, cupped my face and looked deeply into my eyes. “Hyukkie, this is not a dream. I really love you. I’m truly, deeply and madly in love with you”.
“...” I did not know what to say. I love him too. It was like a dream come true. I should be happy but I am crying. What the hell happened to me?
“I-I’m sorry. It’s my fault. I’m sorry for scaring you. Please don’t cry. I’m sorry, Hyukkie. I’m sorry” he apologized as his fingers wiped my tears.
I shook my head and looked at him with my teary eyes. “You don’t have to apology. I love you too. I’m too happy and that’s why I’m crying”
“You scared me! I thought you didn’t like me” he said, relief, and hugged me tightly.
“You also scared me. I thought you like other person” I replied and hugged him back.
“Eh, that’s why you look so down just now” he chuckled.
I blushed. He noticed that? I knew he is the one for me, the person that would bring me out off this lonely world.
I can’t imagine my life without you,
I don’t want us to separate, ever.
He putted me down on the bed carefully before went on top of me. Yes, I am at his house right now. Guessed what would happen next? I thought I would lose my virginity to this guy tonight. Did I care about that? No, because I love he and he love me. I am his and he is mine. That was enough for me.
“Hyukkie, I love you” he confessed. I have lost count on how many times he said those words today.
He leaned forward and kissed my lip. I wrapped my hands around his neck and pulled him closer. There was no gap between our bodies. The kissed became deepen and passionate. Our tongues were battling for a dominant, our saliva were mixing together. I gave up and let his tongue invaded my mouth, travelling and tasting every part on my mouth.
His hand was wandered on my body, made it way from my stomach and up to my nipple, pinched it until it became really hard.
We broke apart and he began to nibble my earlobe before went to kiss my cheek and sucked my neck, hard enough to leave some hickeys there. I could feel that my pant already tight, I knew my member was awake.
Donghae pulled out my shirt and stared at my half naked body, made me blushed with that lusty looked. I tried to cover my upper body but he pushed my hand.
“Why are you covering your body? You’re so sexy like this but don’t let anyone else see your sexy body except me” he said as his hand started to unbuckled my belt. He pulled out my jeans and boxer in one swift movement.
“Ahhh” I moaned as I felt the cold air brushed my skin.
He licked my nipple as his right hand pinched my other nipple. He really made me crazy.
“H-hae, too many ahh... clothes... L-let me... help... you” I got up and unbutton his shirt.
“You’re so impatient, baby”
Did I look desperate? I am not but I did not know why I become like this. It was all his faults. His fault because made me fell in love with him, his fault because made me like him more than myself.
When I was about to pull out his pant, he stopped me and took out his pant by himself, revealed his hard cock. I blushed once again. I did not expect that a cute guy like him would have such a big cock. I shook my head, tried to throw away my pervert minded.
“Why? Thinking something pervert about me?”
Eh? How did he know? He could read my mind?
“Hmm...” I moaned when I felt his cock slightly touched my thigh, such a teaser. “Oh, H-hae” I gasped as he licked the tip of my cock. I lifted up my head a little to see he was licking my member like a little kid who was enjoying his ice-cream.
He then took my whole length inside his mouth, sucked it hard. I threw my head to the back, my right hand clutched his brown hair while my left hand clutched the bed sheet, pleasure started to take over my body.
Suddenly, he stopped and I was a bit pissed off because of his sudden action. He looked at me and grinned. “Wait for a while, baby” he said and got off of the bed.
My eyes followed his movements. He went to the drawer and took out something from there.
“What’s that?” I asked when he climbed back to the bed.
“Lube” he simply replied.
“Since when did you’ve that thing?”
He laughed. “Every man has this baby, for masturbating” he said as he poured the lube at his fingers.
I pouted. Ok, I sounded like a stupid just now. Without a warning, he inserted his first finger into my hole. I flinched a bit.
“Relax Hyukkie” he tried to comfort me with caressed my thigh.
When he saw I did not show any signed of pain, he inserted his second finger. Soon, followed by third finger. He rubbing and scissoring my inner wall smoothly and gently.
“Nghh...” moaned escaped from my mouth.
“You’re so tight, Hyukkie” he commented.
He took out his fingers and positioned his cock at my entrance. Truthfully, I was so scared and nervous. I never do this before. I did not know what I would feel when his cock fully inside my hole.
“Don’t worry. I’ll try to be gentle” he smiled and gave a quick pecked at my lip.
I could feel the head of his cock invaded my hole. I clutched his muscular arm. He moved slowly and carefully, not long after that, his cock was fully inside me. He stopped moving, giving some times for me to suitable with his size and adjusted myself.
“Hae, move” I gave him a signalled.
He gladly nodded and began thrusting in and out of my hole.
“Hae, h-hurt” I said as I shed tears. I felt my body was ripped into two and it was really hurt.
“I’m sorry. We can stop if you want” he said with an apologetic voice.
“No. Continue, I can bear the pain” I gave him a weak smiled. I could not stop now. Not when I knew he was anticipated for this.
He continued his thrusting, slowly. After a few thrust, I did not feel pain anymore. What I felt was pleasure, lust and I wanted more!
“Hae, take me rough” I could not believe I said it.
His thrust became rough and faster. I wrapped my legs around his waist, demanded he to go deeper inside me.
“Ngghhh!” I moaned when he finally found my prostate.
He kept thrusting the same spot again and again, made me moaned his name crazily and repeatedly. His hand went down and found my forgotten member. He pumped my member in same rhythm with his thrust.
“F-faster” I pleaded. I was nearly at my limit.
“If you can hold it, just let it go” he said.
Like giving permissions, I came hard at his hand and well-built abdomen. Donghae kept thrusting, trying to find his own orgasm. Few moments later, I felt warm liquid spurted inside my hole. I let out a heavy sighed. Well, having sex for the first time was not really bad.
He took out his member and lied beside me. We felt silent as we were trying to catch our normal breath. Never thought I would be tired like this.
Donghae turned to me, wrapped his hand around my waist and pulled me closer. “I love you” he said and kissed my nose.
I smiled as I putted my hands around his neck. “I love you too”
“We’ll be together forever” he whispered to my ear.
“I want you to cuddle me like this every night” I mumbled before fell to a deep slept.
Even a little smile from you, brings me happiness,
I’ll make a promise to you; this isn’t a dream,
Many days will pass and I’ll still be yours,
My shining moment, forever.
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Today is his birthday and I am planning to make a surprise party for him, just him and me. After he went to work, I decided to go to the grocery shop. Happily I went there, with a huge smiled on my face.
I bought some food, cake and more importantly, his birthday present, which is a couple shirts with a fish and monkey picture on it.
When I passed the Shining Cafe, I noticed a familiar figure inside the cafe. Donghae was chatting happily with another guy. My curiosity grew bigger as I saw them. They looked really closed and I could not help but felt a bit jealous.
I knew I should think positive. Maybe that guy is his close friend or relative. My head was on fire when I saw them hugging each other. I could not see the situation any longer and ran as fast as I could.
Again, tears started to fall down. I am such a cry baby. I collapsed on the bed as soon as I reached home.
How could you do that to me? Did you really love me? Why did you hug that guy?
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“Hyukkie, I’m home” I heard he opened the door to our bedroom.
I did not move an inches and pretend to sleep. He sat beside me on the bed and lightly shook my body.
“Hyukkie, wake up”
I ignored him, I tried but I am really weak.
“Honey, what’s wrong?” he asked worriedly when he heard me sobbing.
“You’re cheating on me!” I shouted.
“Cheating? What’re talking about?”
I got up and stared at him. “Don’t pretend like nothing happen! I saw you hugged other man at Shining Cafe!”
“Hugged other man?” he asked and looked confused before he snapped his finger. “Did you mean Teukie hyung?” Then, he burst out laughing.
Now, it was time for me to look at him confusedly. “Why did you laugh?” I asked and slapped his arm.
“Hyukkie, calm down please” he said, putted his hands on my shoulder. “He’s my cousin. My closest cousin”
“Y-your cousin?”
He nodded.
“He’s just your cousin? Not more than that?”
He nodded again.
“I’M SOOOO SORRY!” I shouted, quickly hugged him and cried even harder.
I am really stupid to jealous without a reason. I should trust Donghae.
“I’ll forgive you but you’ve to moan my name first” he grinned and pushed me to lays back on the bed. “This is also as a birthday present to me”.
“But Hae, I already bought your birthday present. Let me go take it” I said and tried to get off from the bed.
“That present can wait but my little fishy can’t wait”
Soon, the room was filled with our moaning, gasping and panting, plus the smelled of sex.
There are times when my hasty feelings cause trouble,
So let’s remember the good memories.
“Hae, how much do you love me?”
“I can’t describe it with a word. More wide than the sea, more high than the mountain. I can’t count how much I love you because you’re really precious and important to me”
“Then, will you love me forever?”
He looked at me and kissed my forehead. “Neh, I’ll love you forever. Nothing can separate us, even death can’t separate us”
“Hae”
“Yes?”
“I love you”
“I love you more”
Lee Donghae, I promise I would always be yours. I promise I would always be by your side no matter what happened. I promise I would always love you, forever. Thank you for brought me out of my loneliness world.
I’ll never desire anyone else but you,
Many days will pass and I’ll still be yours,
My shining moment, forever.
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