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or as close to it as i posted
i saw another do and it and i thought it would be fun. the 2002 entry kinda caught me off guard. i'd forgotten i'd met stef this time of year two years ago. the aniversary of her barging in on me in the bathroom at the rugby house to get sick in the bathtub. and the 2000 entry when i'd first met miss kelly (and had the hugest crush on her...heh *blush*). i could amuse myself doing this for days.
xo
**azalea
2003
i cried over mathCAD. yep. it kept turning everything red and telling me my units conflicted and i just wanted to kick my computer. i just felt ubre rushed because i'm going out tonight and then going home for the weekend and i wanted to get a least open channel flow done. so yea...its as done as it can me but i was just so frustraited i cried. i feel rather pathetic. the last text book i cried over was differential equations. that was something to cry over. or have a nervous breakdown. i think i'm readily becoming a canidate for one. seriously. that or meds again. i so dont want to deal with that...i adored my shrink but i really dont have a problem with ocd for the most part so treating anything but the attacks seems a waste.
so i'm going to 'the big gay dance' tonight. yes its seriously called that. yea. the posters for coming out week were just another thing all on their own...just compleatly exploiting the over-sexualized steriotype gaymale image...not what a group trying to break down sterio types should be doing. granted they got my attention...followed by an 'oh dear god they did not do that!'. i got alot of shit as social coord so i'm a bit bitter over these kinda things.
my room is an utter disaster. i need to clean it something wicked. oui. and i'm going back to bspa this weekend so that will be another room to dust. i think i'd hide under my bed from everything today but its rather dust bunny filled. tomorrow i'm driving home early. i want it warm enough to put the top down. get one last nice drive with the top down before having a convertable because a total joke in syracuse.
alright off with me.
**azalea, spinning
2002
so things have been rather crazy lately.
last weekend was one of the best rugby socials i've ever been too. stayed way later than i usualy do. it was just a really good night with the team...everyone was all lovey with eachother...totally cute. i petted a zillion ponytails. oh a fetish. i took care of one rookie whom had the not so brilliant idea of mixing pot and beer...i was peeing and she came in and started getting sick. i couldnt leave her. so i rookie-sat for an hr or so...i saw her on campus yesterday and she was like 'thank you so much'...which was sweet. hopefully she learned.
this week has been rather hell with the pending fluids exam. last night i was just miserable. just stressed, overtired....etc. felt like i had way to much shit...still do. though i feel a bit more confident over the whole fluids thing. i also had a delightful surprize when i got home....i'd gotten shipped flowers! *hearts hearts heart* stacy of course. such a sweetie. all pretty and colorful...waiting on my dining room table for me. i horrded them into my bed room so i can wake up next to them. heh. i so hadnt gotten flowers in ages....it made me glow.
tonight i did more fluids review....surprize eh? still need help on the gate problems....hmm hopefully tomorrow will straighten everthing out. then thurs is the exam and then i'm going home for a hopefully restful weekend. hell yea.
okie off to work on fluids for a bit longer and then to bed!
xo
**azalea, loved
ps. kelly b.......*hearts* keep your chin up sweetie...let me know how the office hours go.
.and.
my comments are in the [brackets]
why i love my photo prof:
"yes, I noticed. [in regard to the red hand prints of rose m's bottom in this david lechapple photo]
Fear not the critique [i told him i was rather intimidated]. The conservative vibe you get is not
irrational. This whole school could use a couple red handprints
on their bottom. I have no problems with risky, provocative stuff.
It's just like Sally Mann said, "If it isn't ambiguous, why do it?" I
hope that you feel comfortable bringing, and showing whatever
you want at our critiques. Please, help me loosen these folks
up. Do not censor!!
D"
why the president of pride union can kiss my fucking ass:
"i understand that you're concerned about whether or
not ed will be a good introduction for james dale,
however, he is going to do the introduction. we [note this dosent include me...i didnt have any say ]have
already asked him, and it would be unprofessional of
us, as well as extremely unkind, to tell him that he
can't do it at this point. if there was a concern
about whether or not we want him to do it, we should
have talked about that several weeks ago. i assure
you that he will present a good image for pride union.
he is a huge fan of james dale, as well as very well
versed on the case.
i think it was great that anthony told you to ask
adrea to do the intro. i just wanted to let you know
that adrea, ed, and i had a conversation yesterday,
and she would prefer that one of us do it. [ i was supost to know this how? oh wait you'd need to let me come to this meeting]
as for catie curtis, please get the information that
you want on the catie curtis kiosk and poster as soon
as you can. this is something that really only you
can do - i don't know what you want on it. [ how about the same type of info that went on the james dale one that i also didnt put together...i think you could look that up] please
remember that this is time sensitive. [no shit] the bottom line
is, if you want publicity for catie, the information
needs to go to the graphic artist this week, monday at
the very latest. i realize that you have a lot of
work (as do we all) and i wouldn't expect you to do it
before your classwork is done. so, if it's not
possible for you to do this, i suggest that you
delegate, [to fucking whom!?!] but please, not to me. i have a lot of
other things to do for Coming Out Week. [like that nap your away msg says you're taking right now...yep just checking]
Thanks!
Matt"
in regards to pride union i'm just pissed that it feels i'm once again getting not much help from anyone...aside from kelly doing all the publicity. i dont think i'm going to do this next year. as a random note turns out my name is rather on campus as someone to network with for getting together awesome concerts...the women in arts/music group mentioned me! lauren msged me to tell me. i guess i called tegan and sara before they did so we're thinking about networking and doing a co-sponsered event. *bows* anyways its just low on my priorities because of the damn fluids test and the last thing i want is snippy lil fake nice msgs with a list of what i need to get done.
so yes. that amused me. i'm off to review some more. i just felt like sharring/venting since i've slacked hardcore with the lj. i'm going back to bspa this weekend....stacy jane had the baby so i've been trying to get back there as soon as possible. horray for being a godmom *not officaly yet*....
anyways....laters
**azalea
2001
azalea: whos an engineer, bitch?
statics book: you baby, you are!
oh yea who rocked her engineering statics exam...moi! i know i got a few points off but i think my prof was actualy impressed with me. or maybe he just liked my black shirt on me....but i think he was looking at the paper. so yea go me! i'm pretty fucking proud. i know some of the others didnt do that bad....ken came out in tears...meeche was just pissed about one prob.....hmm hope for the best and a curve i guess. i'm pleased with myself tho. i was confident. woo hoo! a good statics class can soooo make your night...umm i'm a dork. hush....but yea its nice to feel like i've got something going and that its proof i can take my major. calc 3 didnt do much of that....but i'm going to keep working my tail off and next exam bounce back. hell yea! woo hoo! hehe.
**azalea, proud
okie i'm going to bed now. i reviewed and i'm spending most of tomorrow doing more reviewing with the ta.....i'm hoping to do pretty well on the exam. we *roomie* were all chatting tonight about dates and such....kelly c. bought two at prides auction *fund raiser because sa dosent have -any- money budgeted for us....eww...one date she wanted and one pitty date *pricilla*...all the talk of dates and stuff was cute but just made me dwell on my situation. i find myself doing ballance checks...being careful how far i let myself get involved for fear something will go wrong and because i dont know quite where the other person stands. i function on permenant damage control. its safe but not always fun.....i just want that whole careless romance that has a sence of security to it.......bla bla bla i'm rambling and i need sleep......fuck this lj entry.....
**azalea, overtired and stressed
2000
kelly b walked me home from pride.....she is so damn cute. she is going to be a skate guard at the ice rink and i keep saying im going to go skate against the current...hehe to bad i already told her i cant skate worth shit. she is going to teach me. this should be humiliating. i got another letter from her....im going to have to write back tonight...its so cool. *swoons* okie i have to do write her letter.....
oh and earlier today when it was raining kelly c. ascorted me home under her coat cause i didnt have mine. awww
and the picture is fucking awesome!!! oh my god! im going to scan it as soon as i can.