Title| Regret
Author| Myself.
Genre| Angst.
Rating| Pg-13
Summary| Xiah Junsu, one of the most adorable members from DBSK. Though what will happen if he just can't handle everything?
A//N: This story does not involve any romance, it's more like a family thing. Also contains the members picking on Junsu harshly. Hmm besides that click below! xD
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‘Micky Yoochun hwaiting, Youngwoong Jaejoong hwaiting, Choikang Changmin hwaiting, U-Know Yunho hwaiting, Dong Bang Shin Kai hwaiting.”
Loud claps and cheers yelled through the concert area. Once again the boys never failed to show-off their amazing talents.
It was another day for Dong Bang Shin Kai. Doing concerts, getting packed schedules and having ‘oh great fun’. Junsu frowned silently as he realized his name was not called…once again. Not letting thoughts get to him, he plastered a large bright smile and started to walk off the stage with his other members. “Aish Junsu! Your voice cracked up.” Changmin whispered annoyed as Junsu fiddled with his fingers embarrassed. “You’re such an epic failure.” Yoochun muttered as he sent three crazy fan girls his greasy hot grin.
“S-sorry.” Junsu stuttered. All that was running through his head was he had to get off stage… fast. “Sorry is not always going to cut it.” Jaejoong explained as he gave Junsu, what would seem like a light push to fans but was actually a very strong hurtful one.
At the sudden feeling of being pushed, Junsu tried to keep himself balance but unfortunately tripped over some cord wires and the next thing the members and fans knew was the poor dolphin had just stumbled on the stage. Landing flat on his face.
Some fans laughed, some gasped and some nearly shredded to tears.
( Backstage… )
“What the hell Junsu?!” Yunho sneered as his clumsy member.
Junsu bowed his head in shame. “S-sorry,” was all his response as Jaejoong chuckled half-heartily. “Why are you even apart of this band?”
“I know, all you do is give us a bad reputation.” Yoochun defended Jaejoong’s statement, as he headed towards one of their make-up artist. “And you barley have any talent.” Changmin finished as he pushed pasted Junsu hard.
“I-I have to go to the restroom.” Junsu quickly blurted before making his way to the male’s washroom.
Reaching his destination, he entered the bathroom and quickly locked the door behind him. Leaning against the thick bright white wall, Junsu crouched down.
Sudden pain erupted his legs, as the male then pulled his dark black jeans up to his knees, he noticed on his flawless smooth creamy right leg was a cut. In fact a large cut that was clearly seen. Red substance quickly flowed out and down to his shoes and socks. Blood that was nearly unstoppable. Though the pain didn’t compare to the way his heart ached.
After their fourth album ‘Mirotic’ the Dong Bang boys got busier. More interviews, radio shows, concerts, game shows. It was just too much to handle especially when their manager told them to already start on their fifth album. And thanks to their stress the four members, Yoochun, Jaejoong, Yunho and Changmin started to take their anger on the band’s mood maker Junsu. Though the innocent dolphin couldn’t and wouldn’t say anything back. He knew his hyungs were having a hard time already and he did not want to add gas to that fire.
Though as days pasted it was just too much for the young boy to handle, so after his members would pick on him, Junsu would always go somewhere and cry. Cry out the words he couldn’t speak.
“Yah Junsu! Hurry the hell up, we don’t have all the time in the world to wait for a pathetic punk like you.”
Hurrying Yunho’s voice on the other side of the door, Junsu forced himself to stand up. Quickly wiping away his blood and tears with a couple of tissues, he sighed heavily.
Twisting the doorknob, Junsu opened the door to reveal a pissed-off-Yunho. “Gosh.” Yunho muttered. Irritation and annoyance quickly waved in his tone. Not letting out another remark, the older male then began to walk down the path while Junsu followed. Another day began.
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As the days pasted.
“Hyung~” A cheerful high-pitched voice practically sang through-out the soundless manor. There Junsu was happily skipping down the hallway and towards the living room to meet the other members.
As he predicted the other four were sluggishly sitting on the black leather sofas. Running towards them, he, himself plopped down on one of the arm chairs. “Do you know today is?” he questioned trying to break the awkward silence.
“Junsu we need to talk.” Changmin blurted.
“About?!” Junsu asked puzzled as he looked over at the other three.
“Let’s disband and go our own separate ways.” Jaejoong responded rather bluntly as he stared as Junsu’s blank expression. “W-w-what are you guys talking about? I thought it was all your dreams to show off your talents, oh I get it. It’s an invisible camera right?” Junsu rambled as Yoochun chuckled half-heartily.
“What he means is let’s go solo.” Yunho explained even more clearly.
Junsu stayed silent. He was confused more then ever. “B-but why?”
“Only because DBSK is going down the wrong path. It’s just not working and this band has more of a bad reputation then a good one.” Yoochun replied as he looked uninterested. Like he didn’t even care.
Junsu couldn’t take it. Yes he wished his members were a bit nicer to him but in no way would he wish for them to separate. He loved and cared for them too much. Tears began to form in his eyes, but he couldn’t and wouldn’t let the other members know. Especially not right now. “I’ll do anything please don’t forget about Dong Bang Shin Kai.” He then begged, his fingers interlining as if he was begging for forgiveness.
“Well there is a way we could still keep DBSK.” Changmin responded as he leaned back against his chair. “W-what?” Junsu blurted. Shivers went down his spine as he noticed the evil smirk that curved the younger one’s lips. “How about instead of all us five dropping out, you do?” he then replied pointing his index at Junsu who was even more shocked.
“So you’re kicking me out of the group?” Junsu squeaked.
“Not really kicking you out. You have a choice, either you leave or all of us leave.” Yunho explained as Junsu bowed in his in shame. “I mean you are the one that always causes harm to use and we are falling down the wrong path because of you.” Jaejoong sneered.
“If I leave will there still be DBSK?” Junsu questioned once last time as he saw the others nod. “Then i'll go...”
And with that the male headed towards his bedroom. Gathering all the luggage and items he could, he left without another sound or word but the sound of the front door slamming shut. He couldn’t help it. Pain erupted his body. Pain that was worse then getting yourself burned alive. Though he knew he left with dignity after all he did save Dong Bang Shin Kai and he knew he wouldn’t regret his choice no matter how much he wanted to show the world his talent.
Faith has overpowered him and the poor male couldn’t do anything about it. Turning around Junsu stared at the Dong Bang manor.
“‘Micky Yoochun hwaiting, Youngwoong Jaejoong hwaiting, Choikang Changmin hwaiting, U-Know Yunho hwaiting, Dong Bang Shin Kai hwaiting.” He mumbled as the lump in his throat burned him painfully.
“Happy fifth anniversary guys.”
Yes it was the band’s fifth anniversary. Also the day where Xiah Junsu was now no longer apart of DBSK.
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“Finally!” Yoochun, Jaejoong, Yunho and Changmin screamed happily which could be heard nearly anywhere.
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“Dong Bang Shin Kai, the group of the talented five has changed as Xiah Junsu had now left the group. Three weeks without the boy did enough for the band. As fans cry and sob their eyes out for the unknown reason of the parting, we hope Dong Bang Shin Kai can still be powerful even with one less member. Please be strong DBSK.”
Flicking to a different channel, Yunho sighed. It has been at least three weeks without the dolphin and it seemed like everything was out of place. The band got less sociable and more fights started to break out. Not only have their smiles faded but their talents also have gone to waste. Their passions and love disappeared with everything else.
No more stupid embarrassing oyagi gags.
No more annoying dolphin laughs.
No more pains in the butt.
No more Xiah Junsu.
“Did we really make the right decision?” Yoochun questioned rather loudly as he saw their latest performance “Stand By You” and to be honest, it was completely horrible. Their expressions were dull, their movements were stiff, their voices weren’t prepared and most of all their passions didn’t show.
“Who cares Junsu was annoying anyways.” Changmin responded as he grabbed the remote controller from Yunho’s hand and completely flicked on the television annoyed. “We did what we needed to do, now stop bringing up the past.” He responded before heading off to the kitchen.
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“Aish! When did it get so boring!?!” Jaejoong nearly screamed at the soundless house.
“Either he really misses Junsu or the heats getting to him.” Yunho whispered to Yoochun as they both stared at Jaejoong a bit amused. “Gosh stop talking about Junsu!!” Changmin blurted annoyed as the three stared at him confused. “Whoa, he must really hate Junsu.” Yoochun muttered as he saw the youngest one stomping off to his room. “Let’s go talk to him.” Jaejoong suggested as he quickly dragged the two without permission.
Entering the said male’s bedroom without knocks or signals, they noticed Changmin was now lying on his stomach on the bed. “C-Changmin?!” Yunho stuttered as he heard sobs coming form the little one. Rolling over, Changmin’s eyes widened as he saw his hyungs.
“You’re crying?” Jaejoong questioned as he noticed Changmin’s panda eyes. “You care for him as well don’t you?”
Changmin bowed his head in shame. He didn’t want his hyungs to find out. “So what if I do?” he muttered in-between sobs, as the three then sat down on the bed beside him. Jaejoong chuckled tenderly, as he began to rub Changmin’s back in small circles. “Why did you pretend like you didn’t?” Yunho asked puzzled.
“Because it’s our fault. We needed him but because of our selfish needs we took it out on him. He was just like us and we didn’t know it. Looking back, he had the most stress but yet he continued to smile. He worried about us, he ignored our harmful words and he continued to impress the fans. If I have anything to say about it, well we just lost a miracle.” He explained in one breath.
He was right.
“Someone grab the phone. I have a dolphin to call.” Jaejoong demanded as Yunho chuckled before slipping out his cell phone. “I’m calling.” The leader explained before dialing Junsu’s number. Placing the small electric device near his ear, he awaited for the other line to pick up.
“Yoboseyo?”
“Hello can I speak to Junsu? WHAT?! But he didn’t- your lying right? Where is it? Thank you.”
And with that Yunho quickly cancelled the call and looked upon his confused members. “What’s wrong?” Changmin questioned wiping his nose with his sleeve.
“They said Junsu died in a car accident.”
Their eyes widened. “Y-y-your lying right?” Jaejoong stuttered. Even though the words Yunho spoke weren't harmful, the male felt like it killed him already. Who ever made the saying ‘Sticks and stones might break my bones but words will never hurt me’ were lying and if not how come it felt like a very powerful bullet had just stuck each one in sensitive spots?
“Let’s go.” Yunho then blurted and he headed towards the living room. “Where?” Yoochun stumbled out of the bedroom followed by the others. “To see Junsu’s gravestone.”
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“It c-can’t be real.” Yoochun mumbled as he fell on his knees.
Standing in front of the four was a large tombstone. With the letters
‘May Xiah Junsu rest in peace.’
‘ December 26th ’08 ‘
“Isn’t that-?” Jaejoong paused as tears were already ready to flow down his flawless cheek.
“DBSK’s anniversary.” Changmin finished.
It was true.
Their special dolphin. TVXQ’s special Xiah. The fan’s special Junsu was now gone. Gone upwards with sorrow and pain and nothing the members could do will change it.
“Why?!” Jaejoong questioned as all eyes looked at him. Letting his hands grab a hold of Yunho’s decorative collar, Jaejoong then began to shake the unexpected leader roughly. “What the hell did he do? Why must he deserve all the pain?” he continued to blurt. The tears continued to fall as Jaejoong didn’t bother to stop shaking Yunho. That is until Yunho’s hands wrapped around his waist, pulling Jaejoong into his chest. “I know Jaejoong-ah, I know. The world’s just too cruel.” He muttered brushing his hand through Jaejoong’s hair.
Jaejoong sighed as he continued to cry into the younger male’s chest with no hesitation.
“Look.” Yoochun muttered as he pointed to the tombstone and there at the corner were words.
“Micky Yoochun hwaiting, Youngwoong Jaejoong hwaiting, Choikang Changmin hwaiting, U-Know Yunho hwaiting, Dong Bang Shin Kai hwaiting.”
This made the members cry even harder. It was impossible. They took Junsu’s niceness too far and this is where it took them. Regretting every harsh words and actions they said to the male.
“Does anyone have a marker?” Yunho questioned as the rest narrowed their eyebrows. “Just get me one.” Yunho then demanded as Yoochun reached into his mini bag and threw Yunho a black permanent maker. Crouching down in front of the tombstone, he let his smooth creamy fingers run down the couple of words, brushing the dust and dirt away. Pulling off the lid, he leaned it and began to scribble down some words.
Moving aside he put the marker’s lid back on and looked back at the stone. Under the word’s Dong Bang Shin Kai fighting, the newly fresh different color words stuck out. The words that said
‘Xiah Junsu hwaiting forever and ever.”
“We can't let DBSK die. We have to stay strong. Stay strong for Junsu.” Yunho explained as the others nodded.
“Xiah Junsu, Micky Yoochun hwaiting, Youngwoong Jaejoong hwaiting, Choikang Changmin hwaiting, U-Know Yunho hwaiting, Dong Bang Shin Kai hwaiting.”
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A//N: Well there we have it! ^__^
Got inspired by how the members keep picking on Junsu.
I know it's out of love but sometimes they can be a bit mean can't they?
Though I still love all of them.
Sorry if I made you readers cry, I really didn't intend to do that and if it makes you feel any better I was crying while writing this. Ahaha.
Well besides that excuse my horrible grammar and spelling mistakes and comments are always loved. ^___________^