The sermon at church today was about facing the giants in your life... if you focus on the giant itself, you think about how big it is, how you can never over come it... but if you focus on God, he will get you through anything.  How fitting that today marks two weeks that I have bested my giants with the help of my savior... and yet today I came ( Read more... )

I was thinking about you today. Not that that's different from any other day. But today I thought you should know it.  So here's to you. The hand full of people that I keep close to my heart. Kimi, Ben, Kitty, Roger, RJ, Katlin, Bridget, Caleb, I love you. I wonder if you know that you make the world shine. I'm having a rough day, but I want you to ( Read more... )

Okay I've decided that I'm brave enough to submit my artwork/photographs/ poetry to the Muse publication for Calhoun.

THIS is where I need YOUR HELP!

ALL you have to do is go to this website

http://azul-chan. deviantart. com/

IE my Deviant art page and pick three of your favorite pictures and let me know if you like the poems too. The publication is in ( Read more... )

To expand on yesterday's entry now that I can be rational and calm about it. Yesterday I was told that ninety percent of the things people have done to hurt me had nothing to do with me. I don't know why but I never even considered that when Cory, or Andrew, or Matt or James hurt me... it wasn't because I was a bad person, it wasn't because I did ( Read more... )

90% had absolutely nothing to do with.... I'm not sure if I should be comforted or offended. Maybe I'll be indifferent.

today is day 7

I miss my music box, it was one of the last peices of my grandmother that I had, and I don't know where it is

I miss my music. I played the flute. I was first chair. My private instructor ranked me 3rd out of her 50 students. My band teacher begged me not to quit band... told me I was gifted... and now... now I don't even remember the notes

I miss ( Read more... )

Mental note: Mom's "alternative bagels" are not the same thing as a real bagel and no amount of cheese will ever change that ( Read more... )

I lost two months worth of work in a half a second's worth of madness. But I'm not going to treat this like a defeat. Today I got back up and began again. I got cocky, thinking that my victories were an assurance of my success... but they aren't. I have to wake up every day and start from scratch, even if the tally keeps going up... it only does so ( Read more... )

I just wanted to say that I owe a great deal to those who were so amazingly supportive:

Katlin, you're so sweet. You have no idea what a difference a tiny little comment on lj can make. I managed to hold onto so much perspective because of you. Thank you.

Ben (I know I already thanked you but I can do it again) Thank you for hearing me out every time ( Read more... )

So... I'm inspired by Ben. I'm taking a page out of his book and posting up my poetry. Oppinions are always loved

( look a the words )