Sunshine in the Rain |drabble|
Genre: Fluffy angst
Length: drabble
Summary: He loved the rain. I admired the sun.
So cold.
Mother nature had dictated for it to pour. The silver bullets are knocking on my window. Forcing entry. It's so cold I wonder if that is where the coldness in me was coming from. The coldness is prickling me. And there's no sign of warmth anywhere. The rain has killed every ounce of heat in my system.
The rain.
He loved the rain. I admired the sun. While he find the sound of pouring rain melodious against our roof, i found comfort in the warmth of the sun. You should see the contentment and serenity in his face when he hears the rain pours. It gives me the warmth that I am in desperate need of everytime the dreaded cold visits us.It made me despise the rain though it made me love him more..And through the time we were together, I learned to love everything about him. So i fell in love with the rain as well.
Fell in love.
With him, its not falling in love. Its growing in love. My love for him grew everyday that we were together and more when we were apart.We have every reason not to be together. But the only one reason that I have.The one I am holding onto- is strong enough. I love him. Nothing else mattered after that.
Him.
I love him. For many reasons I can't figure out quite yet. But really, what's not to love? One can only hope to be part of his life. And when he makes me feel that I'm part of it, I'm overwhelmed with such meaning. I wonder why haven't I met him sooner. I can only be thankful for everything that he is. And everything that he makes of me.
Me.
He asked me to be with him through all these and I didn't. God knows how many days must I pay for that mistake.I wanted to just let go and hold him.I didn't know why I didn't and its not going to be easy this time. Regret has accompanied me ever since. Nothing could be more painful than that day. I remember that look he gave me. Like I stole something from him. And I did. Now, nothing' s left.
Nothing.
I feel nothing anymore. The coldness has probably numbed me. And in the right time. There's nothing that he can't do. Nothing can comfort me better. He doesn't have to do anything to be my everything. He just is. Nothing is making sense. Why is he there while I am here? We used to be inseparable. Now, we can't even hear each other..like we're total strangers. Nothing could be more agonizing than to act nothing for someone who was and will continue to be your everything. The worst part is, the only thing to do is wait..
Waiting.
Waiting for him is the easiest thing to do. Second to loving him. He had done more than enough for me, its about time I take my part. Days, months, are slowly becoming years. I admit its a slow and painful death. His emotions scattered for the world to see and I'm nowhere near to pick them up..while I pretend that I don't have a word for it. And though it may be painful for those who loves him. It could not be any more painful for me. No one can imagine what I must go through everytime I see him on that TV..crying..I've never imagine such pain myself-Seeing him going through this alone- While I stay safe in the gutter, guarded by the wall that has divided us. It's not right. I can only stay here and hope. Hope that he gets through this. Even if I don't.
Hope
He marked his back with the word. Doing so solidifes what he has been doing ever since. I'm intent to do the same. To the end, he says. And to the end, we shall meet. Destiny had brought us together once. If destiny fails now. I won't. I will wait. We will rise again. Like the sun that I had loved so much.
The sun
The clouds are slowly reaping back its offsprings of droplets. The sun slowly waking up and giving me the warmth that I longed for before. This time, it wasn't enough.I wanted something more. I'm longing for my sunshine who loved the rain. And if raining is the only thing that can comfort him while I'm not there, i hope it pours. I hope it rains again. Let me shiver in the cold, smiling...
A/N: Wrote this with the remaining life of my laptop during the storm and the power failure. : )
Length: drabble
Summary: He loved the rain. I admired the sun.
So cold.
Mother nature had dictated for it to pour. The silver bullets are knocking on my window. Forcing entry. It's so cold I wonder if that is where the coldness in me was coming from. The coldness is prickling me. And there's no sign of warmth anywhere. The rain has killed every ounce of heat in my system.
The rain.
He loved the rain. I admired the sun. While he find the sound of pouring rain melodious against our roof, i found comfort in the warmth of the sun. You should see the contentment and serenity in his face when he hears the rain pours. It gives me the warmth that I am in desperate need of everytime the dreaded cold visits us.It made me despise the rain though it made me love him more..And through the time we were together, I learned to love everything about him. So i fell in love with the rain as well.
Fell in love.
With him, its not falling in love. Its growing in love. My love for him grew everyday that we were together and more when we were apart.We have every reason not to be together. But the only one reason that I have.The one I am holding onto- is strong enough. I love him. Nothing else mattered after that.
Him.
I love him. For many reasons I can't figure out quite yet. But really, what's not to love? One can only hope to be part of his life. And when he makes me feel that I'm part of it, I'm overwhelmed with such meaning. I wonder why haven't I met him sooner. I can only be thankful for everything that he is. And everything that he makes of me.
Me.
He asked me to be with him through all these and I didn't. God knows how many days must I pay for that mistake.I wanted to just let go and hold him.I didn't know why I didn't and its not going to be easy this time. Regret has accompanied me ever since. Nothing could be more painful than that day. I remember that look he gave me. Like I stole something from him. And I did. Now, nothing' s left.
Nothing.
I feel nothing anymore. The coldness has probably numbed me. And in the right time. There's nothing that he can't do. Nothing can comfort me better. He doesn't have to do anything to be my everything. He just is. Nothing is making sense. Why is he there while I am here? We used to be inseparable. Now, we can't even hear each other..like we're total strangers. Nothing could be more agonizing than to act nothing for someone who was and will continue to be your everything. The worst part is, the only thing to do is wait..
Waiting.
Waiting for him is the easiest thing to do. Second to loving him. He had done more than enough for me, its about time I take my part. Days, months, are slowly becoming years. I admit its a slow and painful death. His emotions scattered for the world to see and I'm nowhere near to pick them up..while I pretend that I don't have a word for it. And though it may be painful for those who loves him. It could not be any more painful for me. No one can imagine what I must go through everytime I see him on that TV..crying..I've never imagine such pain myself-Seeing him going through this alone- While I stay safe in the gutter, guarded by the wall that has divided us. It's not right. I can only stay here and hope. Hope that he gets through this. Even if I don't.
Hope
He marked his back with the word. Doing so solidifes what he has been doing ever since. I'm intent to do the same. To the end, he says. And to the end, we shall meet. Destiny had brought us together once. If destiny fails now. I won't. I will wait. We will rise again. Like the sun that I had loved so much.
The sun
The clouds are slowly reaping back its offsprings of droplets. The sun slowly waking up and giving me the warmth that I longed for before. This time, it wasn't enough.I wanted something more. I'm longing for my sunshine who loved the rain. And if raining is the only thing that can comfort him while I'm not there, i hope it pours. I hope it rains again. Let me shiver in the cold, smiling...
A/N: Wrote this with the remaining life of my laptop during the storm and the power failure. : )