A Day For Him
Pairing: Yongguk/Himchan
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Romance, angst
Summary: Himchan's birthdays were never special to him, until he met Yongguk.
Happy Birthday to precious Himchan, who deserves all the happiness in the world. #ADayForHim ♥♥
19.
When a cake is placed in front of Himchan on his 19th birthday, he stares at it for a while, unsure of what to wish for.
This is the second party he received for his birthday, the previous one more wild and consisting of him, his closest friends and more vodka shots than his mind would allow him to remember. He's not even sure why he agreed, he was never the one to get wasted but in a foolish manner, he hoped he could drown the misplaced loneliness that has been clawing at him for over two years; drown it in a pool of alcohol.
With a small hangover and bitter mood, he sort of wishes that he declined this smaller, tamer party that was held for him the next day, surrounded by his family. Unfortunately, time travel was impossible and even the 19 magic candles in front of him that were melting at a oddly fast pace couldn't make him disappear from this scene. And with his Mum taking pictures of him and the cake at lightning speed and his family members singing happy birthday to him (he slapped his sister's hand away from his cake, noticing her sneaky attempt to steal some of the cream) he thought of what to wish for. And he wished for the one thing he wants.
Love.
20.
When Himchan turns 20, he quickly realises that it's possibly the most useless day in existence. He's fully convinced himself that his life was at its peak during his early years on this earth and as pathetic as his life was in the first place, he believed that it won't get any better from there. And now, sitting at the same table he sat the year before, with the same family members surrounding him and his sister still trying to sneak a bit of the cake and the same magic candles plus 1 (they didn't even seem that magical anymore since the wish he asked for last year hasn't even happened), he doesn't see what the big deal about his 20th birthday is. But he hasn't given up and again, wishes for the one thing he aches for more and more as each day goes on.
Once again, he wishes for love.
22.
For his 22nd, Himchan celebrated not at his home but at a night club. His friends urged him to come with them to a new club that's just opened recently and is apparently already the hottest scene in the area right now. Himchan never liked these kind of events but he thought, since it's his birthday, he might as well, not having anything else to do anyway.
And that's how he ended up in a crowded but trendy bar, waiting for the bartender to bring him his drink. His friends disappeared somewhere, probably to find some women they could take home for the night and he sat there, idly looking around, not really interested in anyone who came up to him and tried to flirt with him or ask him for a dance. He feels someone come up behind him and tries to act casual when the stranger taps him on the shoulder and asks him if he's alone. He turns around to find a man, with a strong built and a handsome face staring at him with an expression he can't name. 'Wow he's fucking hot' is all Himchan could think of and quickly replied "I'm with a few friends" before he made himself look a fool in front of this man with a god like appearance.
The man looked disappointed and took a moment to collect himself before he asked "so where are they?" and slowly looked around, as if he could catch Himchan's friends in a crowded space like this.
"They've run off to find some girls to take home for the night....It's actually my birthday" Himchan smiled sheepishly and looked down, not sure why he was feeling so shy in front of this stranger that seemed to take his breath away with a single glance.
The stranger looked hopeful again and asked "Can I keep you company then, birthday drinks will be on me of course" with a drawl that sent shivers down Himchan's spine.
"Sure but wait, you haven't even told me your name" Himchan breathes out, finding it almost hard to breathe as he stares at the man's strong jaw and imagines what he can do it and suddenly, the room feels too crowded and there's a sudden heat rushing down his body, making him almost lightheaded.
The stranger then looks at him, an unidentifiable expression on his face and a look in his eyes that made Himchan's stomach tighten then burst with a thousand butterflies. "Yongguk. I'm Bang Yongguk." he says with a smooth tone as he awaits for Himchan to reply.
"I'm Himchan" he says, feeling like the luckiest man on earth because he, Kim fucking Himchan, is being hit on by the most gorgeous man he's ever laid his miserable eyes on and he feels like he could fly at this moment because someone is actually taking a interest to him and someone actually wants him in more ways than just in a platonic manner and someone is actually flirting with him. The reality of it hit him pretty fucking hard and although he is somehow still in denial that this is actually happening and expects it all to be nothing but a dream, he still accepts Yongguk's offer to buy him a birthday drink (hey, it's free and given to him by the sexiest man in the room, how could he possibly say no) and begins to small talk with him, distracting each other long enough to get wasted on the drinks they've bought.
Somewhere at the back of his mind, he remembered those magic candles and mentally imagines them, this time with 22 candles and the most hopeful feeling he has ever felt and as he drowned a shot of tequila that Yongguk handed him, he wished that this feeling of worth would never end.
23.
Himchan's 23rd was probably the best day of his life. A whole year passed and somehow during that time, Yongguk and Himchan got close, so incredibly close. Their days were spent in cafes, drawing out each others thoughts and feelings and soon, secrets were being told and promises, both silent and loud, were being made. Their nights were spent at bars and getting wasted only to find themselves at the sidewalks in the streets of Seoul, struggling to get home and giggling to themselves as one of them trips up.
The happiest day in Himchan's life, the day he's been waiting for all his life, came on his birthday, when Yongguk told him to meet him at Banpo bridge. There Yongguk confessed to his feelings, confessed to all the things he loved about Himchan that Himchan himself hated more than anything, confessed to how happy he has made him these last year and confessed to how he honestly just wants Himchan around forever. And for a moment, Himchan said nothing. He said nothing as he tried to remember the little things like who he was and where he is because, to be completely honest, he feels like since he's met Yongguk, he's not been himself. He's been someone new, someone beautiful Yongguk created and encouraged. And although he still feels like he's not worth much to anyone and always feels as if Yongguk is just wasting his time with him when he could be with someone else, someone more beautiful and funny and smart and a thousand other things that made him insignificant, he still feels his heart flutter whenever Yongguk says something sweet and completely amazing about him.
As he was saying all these things out loud and pouring out the fears and emotions he's kept hidden since they met, Yongguk silences him with a soft "Himchan." and before he knows it, silent tears are trickling down his face and he's trying his damn hardest to understand what he's feeling right now and why he is so fucking overwhelmed by Yongguk's confession and suddenly, he's saying "I'm sorry, I'm sorry I'm like this, I'm sorry you feel this way, I'm sorry...I'm sorry..." over and over again, not sure why he's saying all this, right now out of all the times in the world but he couldn't stop himself, he just couldn't fucking stop. He feels a sudden weight near crushing him and is shocked to find Yongguk has him in a tight grip and before he could comment on what Yongguk is doing, his mind go blank when Yongguk not only hugs him but brings his mouth to Himchan's in a quick but hesitant kiss.
Yongguk leaves his lips there for a few more seconds, unsure of Himchan's lack of response and starts to panic thinking he's doing something wrong and pulled away quickly to see Himchan's face. But before he could get further away from him, Himchan quickly pulled him closer and sealed their lips together again and at that point, Himchan swore he saw the stars and the galaxy and everything beautiful in this universe as he melted into Yongguk's soft lips and put his arms around his neck, pressing their bodies as close together as possible. Yongguk quickly took dominance and Himchan parted his lips and let Yongguk's tongue dance across his mouth. The kiss was passionate and Himchan subtly showed Yongguk just how much he cared about him by tugging at his bottom lip and running his fingers through Yongguk's soft, brown hair, pulling them even closer together. He nearly forgot that he needs to breathe and they quickly parted to catch their breaths, both panting into the summer night and while Yongguk was thinking that Himchan is the best kisser to ever exist, Himchan is thinking back to his wish last year.
Love.
And for once, he thinks that maybe, just maybe, he's finally found it. But he wishes one more time, just in case. And this time he wishes that the love lasts forever.