My heart will not be crushed

[b_j_carter_]

*I get Lei's laptop and sit up carefully in my hospital bed

Comments

[amberistara]

What did you do?

[bri_littrell]

*is totally confused* What did I do to you?

[b_j_carter_]

Nothing

[adam_brody_]

You are such a bitch to blame Brian for your own messed up problems...no wonder he usually chooses me over you.

[b_j_carter_]

You know what Adam, you are right, I am a bitch. I need to just except that no matter what, you will always be there in Brain's heart first and foremost. I am jealous of you and the relationship that you and Brian have. But I am not blaming him for what I did. I was the one that did something stupid, not him. I have been trying to get help for my problem, but that should be an excuse for what I did. I should have just sucked it up and delt with it in a better way. So bitch me out, I don't care if you do or not. I deserve to be biotched at right now, and what better person to do it then someone that already hates me. I have never wanted to be you enemy Adam, and I continue to think that you are a great guy, and that is because of Brian.

[an_gel_carter]

*pets Beej's hair* You're going to be ok. You have to. *tears stream down her face* you can't be doing things like this to yourself. Block out all the bad stuff. Think HAPPY thoughts. Happy thought number 1: you have family that LOVES you. and friends that love you.
*reads the last paragraph* Luck?! No! It's a Miracle. fashion design rox. :-D luv ya bunches.

[b_j_carter_]

I love you too Ang, and I will try to think happy thoughts from now on.

[an_gel_carter]

:-D there's my sissy! lub ya bunches

*cuddles*

[aly_magick]

Sweetie, why?
We love you.

Re: *cuddles*

[b_j_carter_]

I know that now; but at the time I was not in a good state of mind.

Re: *cuddles*

[aly_magick]

*nods* Sometimes, we all feel down.