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So im feeling a long entry coming one. no1 is forced to read it, i just need a place to vent
i feet that a congrats are in order to three people who have done a wonderful job screwing up my life. One is a friend, the other 2 arent. I'll start with the friend.
This 'friend' led me on, saying i can always trust her, she'll never tell any1. so i did. what a mistake that was. i tell a good, trustworthy friend this secret, and she says shes known two days?? wtf is that, and u dont even have the nerve to tell me you told someone? i would hav been less mad if u told me then instead of being told by someone else two-three days later. Thank you for cementing the thought in my head that i cant trust anyone. of course, i fully blame you, its more of another kid that used to be my best friend
of course i cant even fully blame u either. Its my fault for continueing to trust u even after i knew i cudnt. idk, maybe i was thinking, weve been such good friends for so long, she wudnt try to hurt me. WRONG. time and time again u would annoy me , boss me around, rat me out, anything it seems now to ruin my life. You know, ive given up on you. i dont care if u wanna be my friend again, casuse i kno u havent changed and ull go rite back to the same thing. im done with it. if it wasnt for that were on bball, volleyball, and club together, believe me, u wuda been cut out a LONG time ago. u dont deserve my time. i even hope u read this, so u understand why i act like i do. I did change, i admit that. but i didnt get meaner, i lost my patience for CHILDISH and FAKE people like urself. thank you for creating a voice in the back of my head telling me not to trust people i Know i can, but then i double back thinking 'a better friend than her have betrayed me before, can i trust her realli'. im starting to work thru it, but it never should have been there in the 1st place
and now for the third. u shudnt even be here, but u hada stick ur ugly ass head into shit. yes i said ugly, i dont care anymore, i dont want to be ur friend, ever again. i dont need a negitive influence in my life, and u were. you constantly put me down, neva would invite me 2 parties, ignored me...im jus sick of it. NOW u decide to get into mine and the person above's business....nowhere is ur name invovled. get out of it. u dont kno anything, but the persons befores lies. I dont even wanna explain it to u, ur so fuckin ignorant. im sry, thats jus how i feel.
So thank you to stef matthews, kami nethersole, and shadae harrison for that!
but realli, thanks to the friends who realli stood by me thru ALL of this. i neva notice who realli has my back til this shit happens, but at least i know. it realli wasnt that big of a deal, but i jus didnt want any1 to know. thanks for understanding.
now im goin2 bed. thanks for reading
i feet that a congrats are in order to three people who have done a wonderful job screwing up my life. One is a friend, the other 2 arent. I'll start with the friend.
This 'friend' led me on, saying i can always trust her, she'll never tell any1. so i did. what a mistake that was. i tell a good, trustworthy friend this secret, and she says shes known two days?? wtf is that, and u dont even have the nerve to tell me you told someone? i would hav been less mad if u told me then instead of being told by someone else two-three days later. Thank you for cementing the thought in my head that i cant trust anyone. of course, i fully blame you, its more of another kid that used to be my best friend
of course i cant even fully blame u either. Its my fault for continueing to trust u even after i knew i cudnt. idk, maybe i was thinking, weve been such good friends for so long, she wudnt try to hurt me. WRONG. time and time again u would annoy me , boss me around, rat me out, anything it seems now to ruin my life. You know, ive given up on you. i dont care if u wanna be my friend again, casuse i kno u havent changed and ull go rite back to the same thing. im done with it. if it wasnt for that were on bball, volleyball, and club together, believe me, u wuda been cut out a LONG time ago. u dont deserve my time. i even hope u read this, so u understand why i act like i do. I did change, i admit that. but i didnt get meaner, i lost my patience for CHILDISH and FAKE people like urself. thank you for creating a voice in the back of my head telling me not to trust people i Know i can, but then i double back thinking 'a better friend than her have betrayed me before, can i trust her realli'. im starting to work thru it, but it never should have been there in the 1st place
and now for the third. u shudnt even be here, but u hada stick ur ugly ass head into shit. yes i said ugly, i dont care anymore, i dont want to be ur friend, ever again. i dont need a negitive influence in my life, and u were. you constantly put me down, neva would invite me 2 parties, ignored me...im jus sick of it. NOW u decide to get into mine and the person above's business....nowhere is ur name invovled. get out of it. u dont kno anything, but the persons befores lies. I dont even wanna explain it to u, ur so fuckin ignorant. im sry, thats jus how i feel.
So thank you to stef matthews, kami nethersole, and shadae harrison for that!
but realli, thanks to the friends who realli stood by me thru ALL of this. i neva notice who realli has my back til this shit happens, but at least i know. it realli wasnt that big of a deal, but i jus didnt want any1 to know. thanks for understanding.
now im goin2 bed. thanks for reading