To make a long story short, even more bad news.. I got a call from my doc telling me that the meds he will give me might not even have an effect on me due to the severity of my case.. The only other option is to have a bone marrow transplant.. He will let me know asap if I do need one.. *sigh*

This is my life.. Full of depression, sadness, and rejection.. Dont you just want to be like me?? I am soo fuckin scared of what is supposed to happen to me.. For most of you that do not understand what that means, it means that I have a very slow blood circulation and that blood is not being circulated to my heart as much as it is needed.. and the ( Read more... )

So Im driving home with my dad and he tells me that my doctor called him at work.. He says that the doctor wants to preform more tests.. The doctor found that I have too many red blood cells in my body.. That sucks.. That is totally not good.. I dont know what to do now.. Damn my body.. damn my blood.. Damn everything that makes me...

Good times.. Went to Universal Studios yesterday.. I must admit, it had its points that were not very fun, But it had its points that were awesome.. I liked waterworld and that jurrasic park ride.. But it made my trip even more better cuz Justin and Darcy were there as well.. they made it worth it.. So Justin was tired, so we dropped him off at ( Read more... )

So yeah.. like always, I am sitting in Engineering bored off my ass with nothing to do... Umm.. its been cold, raininy, hail..y.., umm.. and yeah.. I gotta go to work later so that kinda sucks ass.. But hey, weekend is here! thats pretty cool.. Ive been wanting to listen to those 2 guys who were at Nightlife.. Does anyone know them?? and do they ( Read more... )

So yeah.. My life the pst few days has been very tiring and has drained quite a bit from me.. I just need time to recover.. at least in time for this weekend.. Fun times in store.. So my dad finally comes home tonight after leaving me home alone since yesterday.. how great is that?? He still hasnt told me where he went.. Oh well.. thats just part ( Read more... )

So yeah.. My weekend was different.. Lonely, but yet helpful at the same time.. justin and I hung out last night and had a very heartfelt talk about our lives and shit like that.. It let me say alot of things that I normally dont.. But yeah.. Overall, it was an alright weekend.. except for Friday.. but hey, its alright.. So, I have to work today.. ( Read more... )

I'm waiting for someone to arrive ( Read more... )

It arrives unannounced ( Read more... )

I am feeling like fuckin crap.. Last night went to the movies with friends.. that was pretty cool.. Went and watched Eurotrip.. Wasnt as good as I thought it was going to be.. Everyone who went had a date but me.. Oh wow how fun isnt it?? Then I had a bowling tournament today and bowled like fuckin shit.. Now its raining.. Feeling angry, lonely, ( Read more... )