its over

[babiephat]

mauricio broke up with me thursday. he says it was because he doesn't want a girlfriend right now. He didn't want a serious relationship anymore. HE wouldn't tell me anything else. all he said was that he wanted us to be friends. I cried my eyes out. My friends comforted me. I am staying strong enough for them.. but inside im tearing myself apart.

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[starsorstreet]

He sounds so much like Randy, with the friend thing and his excuses for breaking up and everything. I'm so sorry you have to hurt like this too, Nicole =(

[babiephat]

thank you. its been so long and shit. i don't know what to do anymore. i miss him so much and i want him back.. but i don't even know if he even loves me anymore. i didn't do anything wrong. Everything seems so fucked up.
help me ;\

[_untouchable_]

awww mamita im so very sorry ;[ if he wants to be friends then i guess thats still a good thing ;[ but their is lot more guys den him dat i knoe would love to go out with u or be with u 4 along time wen u get close ;[

[babiephat]

i feel you. but i cant give up on him it's be very long. we been through too much for me to just forget. It's very complicated. I still don't understand why he did this to me and i need to know.
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[_untouchable_]

ya i knoe wat u mean... i hope things work out and u get back with him ;D

[babiephat]

thanx ma <3

[hot_sexy_punkie]

remember this- everything happens for a reason... I don't know your whole situation but maybe it's better off this way and you may not realize it now but give it some time :)
do you for now <3

[babiephat]

i understand.. and i don't know yet. HE is still speaking to me so I don't know anything right now. But i believe you.

[dezireddiva]

oh, how I know this whole fucked up situation ; in & out.

I wish there were magic words I could say to help ease your pain, but in reality.. the only thing that you see will help you is him. its not true of course, but when you're in that bubble, that's all you know. How can anyone blame you? It happens to the best of us sweetheart. Just know that there are people out there who have been through this & even worse situations. You'll surpass all of this in a matter of time. Its time that is your worst enemy now tho. It goes by so slow at first and it doesn't seem to sooth you at all.

All I can really say is this :: I was in your situation [only worse] and I had been with him for 5 years. We are lucky we didn't have kids yet, but honestly.. as much as I begged & begged him to work shit out & as much as the tables turned and he begged & begged me the same way..

it was the best thing ever for us to break up

[babiephat]

i understand everything you've told me. but how can people be so uncertain about each other all the time? i don't understand it. I can't say i know him back and front.. because i know that i don't anymore. people change. but still, how can you just hurt someone so bad after loving each other for so long? it's bizarre. Than, if you are with someone after this, how would you trust them? i wouldn't take anyone seriously anymore. that whole thing about being with someone forever is bullshit to me now. i want to accept it if he came back but now i know shit changes. I wouldn't know who to trust and who to believe. shit is just crazy.
sorry for the curses.
i love you and thanx for that. i sort of understand. there's just some things i need to know. and some things i need to change too.
<3

[miilkshake]

Don't worry mama. Everything will be okay in the end. Goodluck <33

[babiephat]

only time will tell. thanx. <3