ok so i am pretty much terrified of guys now...ever since josh broke my heart i havent been able to fix it...i wont let anyone in. i have these "walls" up to protect myself. im worried. i dont know how to get over it...what do i do?

Ash

well i am getting ready for work...i work 12-8 and i think im getting sick...i dont get sick very often but when i do it is bad sick...so when i get home from work im gonna lay around for the rest of the night...im not going out...

ash

i honestly forgot all about live journal...does anyone still get on here? whoever reads this leave me a comment so i know who still gets on here...

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well when things go wrong in ur life u find out who ur true friends are...not only did my uncle pass away but so did my cousin and only 2 fuckin ppl on here said anything to me...its really fucked up...i dont care if u hate me but u could atleast just say im sorry about ur loss. its not that fuckin hard...

well today i found out that my cousin, Michael, got hit by a drunk driver earlier today...and he died. he was the best cousin in the world...we were just getting close too. we would always be together at EVERY family reunion...me, edye, and him. i dont know if i can go to another one ever again. ok so in the past 2 weeks i have lost not 1 but 2 ( Read more... )

ok i was just kidding about david...not gonna happen....

is it weird that i have only known him for like 3 days and im already falling....he is so awesome! we have talked every night so far. its like i can talk to him about anything. we are going to the drive inn friday and im so excited. im in heaven! lol we have so much in common. i can talk to him for hours and not even worry about what i say. he is ( Read more... )

well i have some bad news...my uncle charlie died lat night at 8:00 while i was at the drive inn. i cried and cried some more. i thank all of you that supported me and i appreciate all the "love". it hit hard. i cried all the way from paris to lexytown today. its gonna be so weird not driving past his house and not seeing him sitting in his chair ( Read more... )

welp i tried to make it happen again...but my mistakes in the past and the way my family thinks is keeping me from being happy...now that i am around him knowing he isnt mine i realize i really do love him. and after the reality that he could have died...i dont know what i would do without him...y did i worry about an ex who hates me and his/my ( Read more... )