This is a song by Evanesence and I like it and it makes me feel a little better about shit that is going on right now ( Read more... )

41. First thing you thought about this morning ( Read more... )

Ok a friend of mine on myspace.com sent me this little thing to do and I figuted beings I have no life I might as well do it. LOL. Not like anyone reads this anymore....sept me ( Read more... )

I found this on a friend of mine's website and I thought it would be something to pass the time with ( Read more... )

I'm the worst fucking mother in the world!!!!! Ok Pumpkin and I were taking our normal nap. It was a little earlier than usual because I was really tired. So I'm sleeping and she is up too early and I tell her to go back to sleep. Well she doesn't but I'm still sleeping. Next thing I know I hear a thud and she is screaming. I jump up outa bed and ( Read more... )

Well Monkey comes home in a few weeks so I'm excited to have him home. Everyone says that he will come home a changed man and I am sorta anxious to see what has changed about him. I still have the divorce papers ready incase I do change my mind. But they become void after 90 days of him being home. So if I want to refile after those 90 days it is ( Read more... )

Besides the funny survey, I've done a lot of thinking today. I started wearing my rings again, I just feel lost without them. I was also thinking that maybe when Monkey comes home we should talk about the divorce before I serve him with the papers. Maybe we can work something out. Actually talk about what has happened with us and see if we can come ( Read more... )

Besides the funny survey, I've done a lot of thinking today. I started wearing my rings again, I just feel lost without them. I was also thinking that maybe when Monkey comes home we should talk about the divorce before I serve him with the papers. Maybe we can work something out. Actually talk about what has happened with us and see if we can come ( Read more... )

Ok so yesterday Monkey and I talked. Great fine and wonderful. Turns out that he read my last entry which he was suppose to because it was mainly to him. But check this out he asks me if I still feel the same way. Why would my mind change in 24 hours???? Am I that flutterbrained? But anyways so I was thinking today, why don't we just stayed married ( Read more... )

Of all things to live and die for love is not one of them. I don't believe it in anymore. It has done nothing but hurt me and make me cry. So I say fuck love and the emotions that go with it. I love my daughter and no other. Being burned, hurt, used and betrayed by love I will be no more. I am sick of having these feelings and the person I love not ( Read more... )