I need to get laid it is no secret. It's been over 3 months and I just need sex. Thing is I don't want it from Monkey. I want it from my friend Draco or Ares. NOT GONNA HAPPEN WITH EITHER!!!!!!! Just really sucks when you want something so much and you know you can't have it at all. So anyways, I got a tattoo yesterday of a symbol meaning ( Read more... )

Well here we are yet again. Let's just start by saying that men who hit women need to be shot and then burried in a shallow grave. My ex boyfriend name Criag came over a couple of nights ago, drunk, and took a swing at me. I wasn't hurt too bad just the right side of my face was swollen. So who do I call to comfort me, Draco. Always him. He has ( Read more... )

Okay for the past few days I have had these weird dreams about my friend Draco. There has always been something between us but there has never been a right time to do anything. Now I'm having dreams about us kissing on my couch and doing other things on top of my car or my grandmother's car. Its weird. I know I shouldn't be having these dreams ( Read more... )

Okay to start this off I found out today that I am pregnant again, so don't congradulate me yet. I am going tomarrow to see how far along I am. I have mixed feelings about this because of Monkey being gone and the other woman. He says they haven't spoken since we got married, yea right whatever. Oh and another wonderful thing happened to me. ( Read more... )

Again in from another "restful" weekend at my mom's. When I say restful it is for everyone here at my grandmother's. As for me I have to deal with and play nicely with a man that made me sleep on the floor while we lived with him. GRRR. To another subject, I will have a new car on Monday. I am excited and also very catious. The last car I had ended ( Read more... )

Well Monkey came back inside the wire so he called me. It was fine until I started to think about all the things he may have done with the other woman. Everytime I start to think about it I get sick. Not really sick just nauseated. It happened all last night after I talked to a friend of mine who met her. I feel like such a door mat. Everyone just ( Read more... )

It seems no matter how much I clean and how much I bitch this house just doesn't stay clean!

Today was good for the most part. Monkey sent my little Pumpkin a 5 foot beach blanket with her name monogrammed on it. How sweet. I know he is just trying to be apart of her life while he is gone. Well on a side note I maybe having another baby. I'm not too sure just yet. The doctors told me that I may not be able to have anymore kids because I ( Read more... )

Alright I was trying to actually get some sleep tonight but it turns out that will not work. I cannot turn my brain off. It just keeps thinking about shit that doesn't need to be thought of. When I do think about these things it just makes me cry and puts me in a depression that I can't cure right now. Even fucking notice that the ones you love ( Read more... )

Well happy Easter Sunday to those who care. Not much went on this weekend. I spent it in Venus Texas with mother and her boyfriend. He is the only reason I hate going out there. His veiws on shit are just stupid. He hates the government and the way he sees everything is just stupid. He doesn't vote yet he bitches about who is in power. Dumbass. ( Read more... )