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Remember me? How are ya. Been a while.
Yesterday I had to do a poetry performance for poetry class. The teacher had come to think of me as a nervous person, so when I went up there and quoted the poem from memory without stuttering or shaking, I think he was impressed. He said so afterwards. Afterwards, as he had us to talk about how long it took us to learn the poem and how we felt while up there, when he got up to me, before I said anything, he said, "Naomi, you did very well." He didn't emphasise the very when commenting on anyone else, in fact I'm not even sure he said that to anyone else. Then, he said, "I was worried about you just before you went up. You seem such a nervous person, and I was just thinking, help her get through this.
How touching. And I discovered how fun it is to turn someone's set perception of you completely upside down.
And then later in that class, we had to go into groups and discuss how we thought people went and what we think people did wrong. Someone in my group asked, "Who do you think were the best three?" And then she looks at me and says, "You were definately up there."
Yeah, I'm gloating. It's my blog, I'm allowed to gloat. I didn't expect such good feedback, honestly, and I was very nervous about it beforehand.
After that class, I went to the cafeteria to get lunch, only to discover my wallet was missing. I backtracked and I couldn't find it. I went to the office, and they had my wallet, but all my money and a proof of age card (without photo ID) was missing. Everything else was there. I was hungry the whole day.
If you remember, ages ago I wrote how I intended to have one conversation with this man in a couple of my classes. I finally achieved this goal. What I found out about him: He is deaf in his right ear. He doesn't like TAFE. He likes screenwriting and not much else. He got his grey hairs by a painful breakup with someone who may have been his wife, and he might have kids, but that point wasn't that clear.
Actually, those last two points I picked up by eavesdropping on his conversation with another he seemed to know better. Actually, it wasn't really eavesdropping, I was sitting right there and he knew I was there, he just wasn't speaking directly to me.
Oh yeah, I also know he's a nice guy cos he offered to buy me something when I said something about not having any money. I think he's also a cynic, though. But I'm not sure.
OTHER NEWS: I feel myself being pulled more and more into the social web of students at TAFE with an invitation to a birthday party. I am very much IN!
Oh yeah, and I did an oral presentation for another of my classes with a strange, quiet boy who is in two of my classes. Another cynic, I believe. All of his poetry has the F word in it a LOT, and all of his poetry is usually social commentary. But I haven't heard him swear in his conversations, just his poetry. Also, he has a bit of a nervous stutter, and his hands always seem to be shaking. He is a bit eccentric. The reason why I mention him is because I think I've appeared on his radar. Since we did our presentation together, he is noticing me. And smiling at me when I walk by, and saying, "hi." And I can't be sure, but I sometimes feel his glance on me in class. But I can't be sure. I don't know if he likes me, or what. I don't consider myself to be a person that is that attractive to the opposite gender, but I am quiet, nervous, and a little bit eccentric, so maybe he sees me as a kindred soul. (Although I don't think we have much else in common - except that we're doing the same course.)
But I actually really like him. Except whenever I try to talk to him, I never know what to say. I feel awkward around him. And he probably feels awkward around me, too. I'd like to be his friend, though, and I don't see him around with many other friends. He is fascinating to me, and I would even go out with him if it came to that, except for one huge obstacle that he doesn't know about yet. One that many of you probably wouldn't understand, but it's a big deal to me. It may not come to that, though. He may not like me that way.
For people who bothered to read all of this the way through, perhaps you could give me your opinion: Assuming this is an obstacle that I won't be able to pass, and assuming he does have feelings for me, (which he may not, which might be my imagination), should I or should I not try and befriend him? (Would that be leading him on?) And should I try to get as close to him as I can before the obstacle gets in the way?
Yesterday I had to do a poetry performance for poetry class. The teacher had come to think of me as a nervous person, so when I went up there and quoted the poem from memory without stuttering or shaking, I think he was impressed. He said so afterwards. Afterwards, as he had us to talk about how long it took us to learn the poem and how we felt while up there, when he got up to me, before I said anything, he said, "Naomi, you did very well." He didn't emphasise the very when commenting on anyone else, in fact I'm not even sure he said that to anyone else. Then, he said, "I was worried about you just before you went up. You seem such a nervous person, and I was just thinking, help her get through this.
How touching. And I discovered how fun it is to turn someone's set perception of you completely upside down.
And then later in that class, we had to go into groups and discuss how we thought people went and what we think people did wrong. Someone in my group asked, "Who do you think were the best three?" And then she looks at me and says, "You were definately up there."
Yeah, I'm gloating. It's my blog, I'm allowed to gloat. I didn't expect such good feedback, honestly, and I was very nervous about it beforehand.
After that class, I went to the cafeteria to get lunch, only to discover my wallet was missing. I backtracked and I couldn't find it. I went to the office, and they had my wallet, but all my money and a proof of age card (without photo ID) was missing. Everything else was there. I was hungry the whole day.
If you remember, ages ago I wrote how I intended to have one conversation with this man in a couple of my classes. I finally achieved this goal. What I found out about him: He is deaf in his right ear. He doesn't like TAFE. He likes screenwriting and not much else. He got his grey hairs by a painful breakup with someone who may have been his wife, and he might have kids, but that point wasn't that clear.
Actually, those last two points I picked up by eavesdropping on his conversation with another he seemed to know better. Actually, it wasn't really eavesdropping, I was sitting right there and he knew I was there, he just wasn't speaking directly to me.
Oh yeah, I also know he's a nice guy cos he offered to buy me something when I said something about not having any money. I think he's also a cynic, though. But I'm not sure.
OTHER NEWS: I feel myself being pulled more and more into the social web of students at TAFE with an invitation to a birthday party. I am very much IN!
Oh yeah, and I did an oral presentation for another of my classes with a strange, quiet boy who is in two of my classes. Another cynic, I believe. All of his poetry has the F word in it a LOT, and all of his poetry is usually social commentary. But I haven't heard him swear in his conversations, just his poetry. Also, he has a bit of a nervous stutter, and his hands always seem to be shaking. He is a bit eccentric. The reason why I mention him is because I think I've appeared on his radar. Since we did our presentation together, he is noticing me. And smiling at me when I walk by, and saying, "hi." And I can't be sure, but I sometimes feel his glance on me in class. But I can't be sure. I don't know if he likes me, or what. I don't consider myself to be a person that is that attractive to the opposite gender, but I am quiet, nervous, and a little bit eccentric, so maybe he sees me as a kindred soul. (Although I don't think we have much else in common - except that we're doing the same course.)
But I actually really like him. Except whenever I try to talk to him, I never know what to say. I feel awkward around him. And he probably feels awkward around me, too. I'd like to be his friend, though, and I don't see him around with many other friends. He is fascinating to me, and I would even go out with him if it came to that, except for one huge obstacle that he doesn't know about yet. One that many of you probably wouldn't understand, but it's a big deal to me. It may not come to that, though. He may not like me that way.
For people who bothered to read all of this the way through, perhaps you could give me your opinion: Assuming this is an obstacle that I won't be able to pass, and assuming he does have feelings for me, (which he may not, which might be my imagination), should I or should I not try and befriend him? (Would that be leading him on?) And should I try to get as close to him as I can before the obstacle gets in the way?