Changing your life has more to it then you think. You think that you can do it, but it is so hard. Trying to change the way you do things feels un-normal, like it isn't you. I feel like who I thought I was is not supposed to be part of me anymore but I want it to be. In a way, I was "happy" with my life as it was, but I knew that it couldn't go on ( Read more... )

So my last journal was harsh and I am quite sorry to anyone that i hurt by things that I said. Life has been hard lately and very difficult to deal with. The stress, anger, and everything else has about killed me. I don't get sleep at night, I can't concentrate in class, I've been oober sick lately, and everything else has been so hard to get ( Read more... )

you know what, the meaning of family means nothing to me anymore. to me that word is like the word "the". there isn't any big meaning to it and it is just another bullshit word in this big, big world. so yea and then there is also "looking out" for someone that you "love" but i think that is bullshit to! people dont REALLY care about other people, ( Read more... )

so life is not the greatest, i had a good day and all but my feelings at the end of the day are not what i want them to be. i worry so much and i wish i could just let go. i hate this and i hate myself for this. why cant i just be a happy person huh, i really want to know? i mean seriously, so much shit to deal with and i dont know how ( Read more... )

What is your name?:Erin Rouse Are you named after anyone?:nope What's your screename?:sexy beast marie Would you name a child of yours after you?:no way If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be?:aaron? If you could switch names with a friend who would it be?:i dont know Are there any mispronounciations/typos that ppl do ( Read more... )

life is full of a lot of shit that you have to work your way through. you may think that you have no one there for you but i know for a fact that everyone does. they are there for you through anything, and there will always be someone. people have to realize this and know that there are so many people that care about them. you cant take the easy ( Read more... )

OMG!!!! Life fucking has flipped and done a 180. It is all my fucking fault and I know that I am to blame. I just wish those that were hurt can forgive me. I've done a lot of bad shit, but I honestly don't think that anything has ever amounted to this. In fact I know for a fact it hasn't. I felt something and I ran. I didn't know what to do with ( Read more... )

Rachel I owe you!!!!! I love you so much!!!! :)! MUAH!!!!! I will pay you back ( Read more... )

Is anyone else disturbed by these Charmin toilet paper commercials, or is that just me? I mean, come on. It's a bear taking a shit, then wiping its ass with TP. Bears don't use TP. Bears don't fucking wipe at all. And then the damn things are dancing around, so jovial and happy that they just ploped a turd, but their toilet paper was so soft and ( Read more... )

Well, school sucks ass already. My days have been so fucking long, I mean come on i have to be up at 5:30 every morning except fridays, I have to be up at 7 then. It sucks so much! See that's only part of my day to! Then I still have to have a life and spend time with people ( Read more... )