so i just sat down here, im my "new" room?  i dont know, it feels new to me.  my room makes me happy, this is one place i really dont want to leave.  i dont want to hang out in the tv room , kitchen, basement...just my room.  maybe its because im so used to hanging out in one room all the time.  im so comfortable in my room.  i moved everything ( Read more... )

After the past couple of months and our afternoon together, I have learned one thing ( Read more... )

ugh no calc...please please please, i cant take it anymore. i would much rather study for any other subject. someone want to take it for me? PLEASE ( Read more... )

I cant tell if im jealous, mad, sad, frustrated, or lonely. I hate you right now and i dont know why. Ive been talking about you all freaking morning and it sucks, im trying to forget a lot of things...im tired of hurting. oh well i love you anyways.

what did i just do?  is that ok?  im scared...very scared.  it wasnt supposed to happen like ( Read more... )

yet again i fucked up. i guess i just cant keep good things. everytime things seem to being going well i somehow find a way to fuck shit up and it pisses me off. i like the kid...i really do, and well here i go again and find a way to piss him off. go elyse.

so i guess ill do an update before i have to go to class in twenty minutes. I was going to sleep but ehh who needs sleep right?

prom was this weekend. it was pretty fun. my date was a little clingy though, and i hate clingy people. Madison won prom king, i am so happy for him! so happy! i guess i danced with a few guys, friends really. my ( Read more... )

what happened to my friends?! ugh! Im losing my friends to my best friend, and im losing my other best friend to a fucking guy! this is crap. i feel like crap. im sorry im not a flirt like that, i dont want to lead guys on that i dont want to be with. i dont want to date anyone. im sick of talking about guys and how they suck, why cant i ( Read more... )

i gave blood...now i feel sick

ok so i have never really celebrated 4-20...oh but last night was AMAZING. let me start off by telling you that i met mitch greenwell's twin. no joke, he looked dead up like mitch, i was really confused for a second when i walked in the door, lol. it was awesome. but this guy was a total hippie...dude i fell in love with him last night! ( Read more... )

ok well where do i start first. I'll start at the beginning...if you can call it that. The new theme song for my life right now. For everything going on in my life. This is how i feel. Amazing song, I have been listening to it non stop...

"Dumb Girls"

He broke my heart today
I don't know what to say
I can't feel a thing at all
I did not see ( Read more... )