if you only knew.

[babydoll_bells]

 I moved out. I'm living with my parents.

What a great way to start off the new year. I guess it's better than being homeless...as I've felt I have been since November.

I've backed off from R. I love the guy. I love that he wants to take care of me...but now's not the time for any of this.

as for J...I just wish more than anything, today he would call

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[deucediva]

Hon, being alone seems a lot better then being married (and having "Married duties") and being lonely at the same time.

It all kind of sucks but think about it this way, at least you have the freedom to be you.

Im blogging & looking over my shoulder... erasing every text. Hiding ME. Hopeing he doesnt find out.

[babydoll_bells]

yeah..i've been alone in my marriage for a while...actually...and it still sucks..

but I still love him..

and that's probably why i'm in therapy. I stopped hiding me in the last year, but I also....don't think he loves me for the me i am...

[killallkinds2]

People change all the time, there wants and needs too, Maybe at this time in his life, maybe he isnt ready and/or want the same you want. You want it and that what makes it hard to come to terms. Dont think its anything with you, You are tryin and he isnt.

Your heart is into it and your putting your heart on the line and he isnt, Its not fair to you go keep hopeing for something which naturally should allready been.

You deserve to be happy, maybe you havent found the right person at the time, but it only means, that next guy will be better then the past be cause you have more of a idea of what you want.... Be excited for that, It only means things will be better

"True love waits and love isnt built in a day.