In Maryland right now. Going to eat some pizza soon when Josiah and his dad come back. Hungry as anything. Almost died a few times coming into town. My eyes are extremely blood shot. Looks like I am high

Not much to do.. Feel pretty much like a failure right about now. No letters, no friends to give me support from a block away. No family to really fall back on and get their support.

Not sure why I feel so depressed. It just sunk in that I am married and I could ruin it like everything else.

Josiah and I went to New York's State Fair yesterday. It was more like a carnival. Had a huge headache and still have one, but it was an anniversary so it was worth it. Saw Fireworks and he won me some prizes. There was this bozo the clown guy and people were trying to hit a target to make him fall into water, but it was rigged. People kept ( Read more... )

People have changed so much over a summer. First they are all gone in college drinking themselves into oblivion or smoking so much weed they don't know which way is up. They're whole lives are partying when it used to be school and friends. I'm probably the furthest away and I'm not even in college yet. Sometimes I just wish I went to college and ( Read more... )

Well I am in New York. Watertown. Just got the internet and I haven't updated in awhile. I just remembered that I left Josiah downstairs. I was reading everybody's journal entries and it makes me miss them. Josiah and I have been doing a lot of work on the apartment. It's pretty kewl. We've been fixing the bathroom and everything. Well he's been ( Read more... )

I got my belly button pierced and my tounge pierced yesterday with Josiah. He got a tattoo! But I got sick yesterday so I threw up a lot. Not sure why? But Josiah was getting his tattoo and he stared to see spots and was sweating, so he had to stop during the first few minutes. So I gave him my slurpie and he took a different position (laying down ( Read more... )

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Josiah comes down today. I'm excited but he's beginning to become rude. The movers moved my stuff so now my cat thinks I am gone all the time. Get's annoying

Plans keep changing. Not sure what they are at all anymore. Josiah's talking about me leaving tomorrow with Barry and staying there, but I don't think I can. I HAVE to spend time with my friends. It may be the last time I see them for a long time! I know he understands that, but I also know he wants me to be with him. I love him but my friends are ( Read more... )