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fun times a million...I dont ever write in this 1...I like it better. Im going to start writing in here the MOSTEST! all these people I dont liek are surrounding me so much. GO AWAY. I wanna be w/ a dude that wants to be the biggest pimp in texas so of course he leads me on...along w/ about 12 other girls, that dosent really work. The Yankees lost ( Read more... )

I think theres somthing wrong with me I keep throwing up...but I dont feel sick I just feel really full all the time and all Ive eaten today is some frosted flakes and a piece of cake stuff at church, the old ladies are poisioning me I bet. Im offically depressed again, Ive began to be able to tell by my dreams, if the house is there Im sad in my ( Read more... )

sometimes you think people exaggerate thing to an extent where you just dont want to hear them complain anymore, then you regret never asking your self...what if this is real, what if hes not lieng, what if he really wants to die. Inever realized what an important part of James' life I was till I talked to his mom today. on Tuesday night after I ( Read more... )

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I had a good fun night to get rid of my sadness of what I herd from James' mom earlier. heres my night... Ky called and asked if I wanted to go w/ her ian and jackie to brianas sweet 15 (the dance after it) I was gunna say no bc I was all sad and shyt still but then I decided to go and it was so much fun. Im really glad I went. we went to get Ian ( Read more... )

holla...just kidding. hm this has been an ok week. theres lk no big James events, WOW. I actually forgot about him a while ago, but its ok bc hes basically dissapeared off the face of the earth...again. which is weird bc I dont have anybody to have big long convos late at nite w/ but I guess I can live with just sleeping...see Im thinking positive ( Read more... )

James was supposted to ask me out, he said he had somthing to ask me when he had his arm around me but next thing I know hes with Jill...stupid fuckng bitch. not really, thats him. I hate myself so bad rite now but I will be ok bc I can look at Crumley and J-mo and Lee....happy day. not for a while though, I will have a happy day that is.my life ( Read more... )

what up...I just got home and done talkin to James, he says he'll call back but I dont think he really will...anyways. I was at Emmas after our 6am practice and we just chilled for a min. I watched the Stained dvd and she burned me the Simple Plan CD then around 9 or so Mikey and Chris came over and we watched tv and chilled for a while then Mindee ( Read more... )