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Big long rant that needs some answers. Sadly I think I'm the only one who could provide the answers.
Well kids I'm undecided. We're getting to the end of the month and while I have other worries(such as rent and food) my biggest worry is whether I want to be here any longer. I've lived in MA for two and a half years and it hasn't been very pleasant to be honest. I've met some good people here and there, I've spent time with Katie, even went to some classes. But, I've also had employment issues galore, sometimes housing issues, and honestly I've never felt welcome or wanted in this state. It's a pretty sad a lonely place most of the time and I just dont know if I want to stay any longer.
If I head back to WA I wont be with the parents, I've had enough of that life. No I would be trying to make other arrangements for housing and work. I miss nice people, better weather, friends, and family.
Here's the problem:
If I leave MA and head back to WA I'll only have a little while to spend with Katie during the summer before she heads back to school, that is if I dont head back to MA as well. I really dont want to spend that much more time away from each other as I miss her terribly as things stand now. I dont really want to come back here for a long while if I do head back to WA though so bouncing back and forth wouldn't be cost effective. Other issues arrise from trying to come back if I go to WA such as finding a place to stay. Cant really stay with my current roommates, one is now dealing full time and the other is an ass. Again, there's the work issue with MA as well. I think I'm pretty much forced to stay here. It really f'n bothers me that I cant seem to work past this crap. I simply dont want to be here.
Well kids I'm undecided. We're getting to the end of the month and while I have other worries(such as rent and food) my biggest worry is whether I want to be here any longer. I've lived in MA for two and a half years and it hasn't been very pleasant to be honest. I've met some good people here and there, I've spent time with Katie, even went to some classes. But, I've also had employment issues galore, sometimes housing issues, and honestly I've never felt welcome or wanted in this state. It's a pretty sad a lonely place most of the time and I just dont know if I want to stay any longer.
If I head back to WA I wont be with the parents, I've had enough of that life. No I would be trying to make other arrangements for housing and work. I miss nice people, better weather, friends, and family.
Here's the problem:
If I leave MA and head back to WA I'll only have a little while to spend with Katie during the summer before she heads back to school, that is if I dont head back to MA as well. I really dont want to spend that much more time away from each other as I miss her terribly as things stand now. I dont really want to come back here for a long while if I do head back to WA though so bouncing back and forth wouldn't be cost effective. Other issues arrise from trying to come back if I go to WA such as finding a place to stay. Cant really stay with my current roommates, one is now dealing full time and the other is an ass. Again, there's the work issue with MA as well. I think I'm pretty much forced to stay here. It really f'n bothers me that I cant seem to work past this crap. I simply dont want to be here.