STOP TELLING ME WHAT TO DO AND OFFERING ADVICE!!!!!!!

I am so tired of everyone telling me to get rid of Brian, to get another job, to move, to find someone better, ect. I know people are just trying to help but I have dozens of people telling me what to do. You have no right doing so, you dont know what my situation is.

I have about an inch left of my wine bottle. I started drinking it around 8:30. Good times. Brian and I emailed a few times. I found out what he was peeved about. I said i'm sorry, again. He said, never mind, its something i have to deal with. I replied with, no its something we have to deal with, i'm the one who has been crying for 2 hours. ( Read more... )

Michael left for Main this morning. Last night he picked me up from work, crashed a theatre party then split a pitcher of beer at a nearby bar. We left my place at 5:30 a.m. for the airport. I forgot that time existed. Then I picked up Brian and we headed to MN history day in St Cloud. That was really fun! We got to judge school projects. Its like ( Read more... )

*sigh* I was so frustrated with Brian today. Maybe its just me... I havent had a hug from him in weeks. Even when grandma died, nothing. In bed last night, he kept pushing me over when I would roll towards him during the night. Not even a kiss or a hug goodbye/good morning. If we arent going to be intimate in other ways, the least I want is a hug ( Read more... )

Well. Today mom said they are staying tonight as well. Fuck. She said she new weeks ago, so why wasnt I informed?! Luckily, Brian is encouraging me to stay with him tonight. We sent some very nice e-mails to each other this morning. He had two tests, very worried about them, throwing up and all. He did ok on the first, havent heard about the second ( Read more... )

I'm back from grandmas funeral in Reedsburg, WI. I almost ended up being a pallbearer because there were not enough people. The minister mispronounced our last name multiple times, he read a zillion scriptures as he didnt know her, at the cemetary the dirt was not even covered up and my family sucks. Now, I havent seen them since grandpa died about ( Read more... )

She lent me the ENTIRE series of Queer as Folk on DVD!!! How I miss that show. Is it really true that guys think about sex every 28 seconds? Why cant I meet a guy who thinks like that? *sigh* Boy, I really need a fag. Yes, I mean both kinds! I really do miss my gays and cigs. I get paid in the morning, I should pick a pack up. Anyways... Grandmas ( Read more... )

Since I have been feeling very tired for the past week, I finally went to the doctor today. Turns out I lost almost 20 pounds since I saw her two weeks ago. She changed my meds and said that should help. The other day I sent Brian that post, as mentioned. No word from him regarding it. I'm not sure if that is good or bad. Guess we'll see. He hasnt ( Read more... )

While looking on IMDB, I found out that they are in filming for Sweeney Todd directed by Tim Burton starring Johnny Depp, Helena Bonham Carter and Sasha Baron Cohen. That should be fun!

OMG! Work at Park Square was ssssssoooooooo boring! I am very happy that it is a short show. Had a very nice evening with Brian tonight. Went to Little Oven for dinner and had a bottle of wine. We need to do that more often. After dinner, we went back to my place for a short nap before Scissor Sisters. He wasnt feeling very well. I wish he would ( Read more... )