so im joining the marines...its the only thing i can really do since i fucked up my education...im planning on going 2 irag id rather die with a bullet in my heart then to let this meth and coke kill me...so if anything happens 2 me i gotta tell a few people some things ( Read more... )

so im learning alot, ive learned i like bridget shes really cool, i shouldve given her a chance instead of listening 2 the gnome...yea im not gonna open my big mouth and say any more mean things its pointless she got ricky oh well i loose...im used 2 it by now...also ive learned i suck at life really bad, i need 2 prioritize yea thats for andrea i ( Read more... )

a hypoglocemic lil brat tryed 2 take a stab at my person but 2 bad...she cant hurt me anymore...hate is prolly my best friend and one of my best quality...i cant do much but i sure as fuck can hate u better than any1 else can...2day sucked my grandparents told em its my fault my mother left and im a freak cuz my artwork is a lil 2 odd 4 them but ( Read more... )

so i went 2 c the girl that i thought would b cool, but sadly another wasted attraction...its such a turn off wen girls think they can drink more than me and ther pukin all night and i have 2 take care of them...mayb i was kinda like a reject that whoever accidently made cuz it sure seems thers nothing out ther for me anymore, lifes not getting ( Read more... )

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ok so i just sent my true feelings 2wards suzi...felt absolutley amazing 2 get all that off my chest...all im worried aobut is if it offends any1 else sry...cuz im sure suzi will run and tell every1 cuz she likes 2 suck the pitty from every1 and feed off of it, fact of the matter u dont fuck with ppl who aernt exactly in ther right state of mind... ( Read more... )

I found the easy way to die
Just educate myself and pretend
All I've learned's untrue
And yeah, I know that
All I'll lose is you
Have you ever loved something
That never seemed to
Have a face at all
It just screams out loud
It always cures the pain that would never leave
Then causes even more
It just screams out loud
But never goes away!

so i went with melanie on monday it was a fun adventure, i was kind of freaked out at her sons grave though...i still think hed hate me and didnt want me ther...but anyway it was fun...i went 2 roberts that night and i got so drunk i peed on his floor thinkin it was the bathroom...it was also nice 2 talk 2 ppl that r on the same intellectual level ( Read more... )

went 2 the hospital found out not good things...but this ciggaretts still in my hands....who even really gives a fuck....i found a bunch of mixes andrew had...i got both deathboy cd's....ther amazing i love the song collision and parasite not over...no1 really cares wut i nhave 2 say anyway....

so mothersday....yet again it was a terrible day...it started off with my psycotic gramma asking me 2 call her mother bcuz mine is gone and no1 knows if shes even alive....long story short she asked me 2 clal her mother...me saying ur out of ur fucking senial mind....so i spent the day with chris and his family since i dont have 1 of my own....i ( Read more... )