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[backtoyou]

wow guys. my life is. full. and confusing. and all the things it normally, but to the 19th power. it's amazing how ACCENTUATED everything is. every emotion....every event. you cry here over a stubbed toe, and suddenly the tears won't stop and you are crying crying crying for so many things....or you take a walk on a saturday. but it's not

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[intothelight]

i'm crying...b/c it's my mom and she's so far away and she can't help me do this. this is something I MUST DO ON MY OWN. i must smooth these tangles on my own...that is the only way that i can trust the results...

angelina davito...
first of all, i'm so glad you're writing here. it is honestly SO GOOD to get a glimpse into your mind and your heart again, especially now.

second of all, that up there? is so WISE, beana. i'm not just trying to flatter you; i want to tell you that that much self-consciousness (in a good way...conscious of your SELF) will only help you on this journey. today i am writing my final essays for my study abroad application and posts like this only remind me and remind me why i want to go. i love you bean. and i will pray too.

[backtoyou]

lindsey.

i'm praying for you as well. this truely is one of the most amazing amazing challenging experiences i have ever taken on. i hope you go. you MUST go.

thank you for your thoughts and prayers.
love you always
beana

[imperfect_gurl]

beana. you are writing basically all the emotions i felt while i was abroad (only, i didn't tell anyone about them which made it a little harder for people to relate when i got back). but i am going to sit down soon and write you a real live letter.is there anything you want me to send with it? reese's peanut butter cups? mac and cheese? alone is such a terrifying, empowering, and strange place to be.

[backtoyou]

Nicole!

oh that would be fabulous fabulous. do you know what i want?? i want CHEEZ-ITs and a burnt CD. b/c i only brought like....10 CDs and i'm so sick of them. can you put that ANI song on it...I think it's called...you had time?? but it's about going away and coming home again. i hope you can find it. i've been craving to hear it.

and i would LOVE to get a letter from you. any piece of home is OF COURSE welcomed. i wouldn't say i am homesick still. but. i would say that sometimes i notice this heaviness in the pit of my stomach...and i realize it's the result of so much unfamiliarity. it's not menacing....it's just a reminder i suppose. that i am here. and that eventually i will go home and that heaviness will go away. so i'd better LIVE IT UP here in france.

ohhhhh nicole.
i do love your stinking face.
xoxo
beana

Ange its me!...

[imperfect_gurl]

I'm gonna bring your cd's to France with me!!! I am so sorry I have them still.. this is random and drunk... I f'in am in love with you... see you soo soon.