"And in the dark I want to find that door and go within."

[justbeingaqueen]

Who: justbeingaqueen and couturejourno
What: All these sides of me
Where: Neuroscience Unit, Mount Sinai
When: Around the time of THISThe padded bench along the wall just along the from the water cool was probably intended to be comfort, made for lengthy periods of sitting, but to Kurt, it felt like he was sitting on a rock hard cold slab. He had his arms crossed tightly over

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[couturejourno]

If she were entirely honest, seeing Kurt like this was the last thing Leslie had ever expected. Yes, she knew the truth about his background and what he'd been through, the struggles he was dealing with, and all that. But that was different than seeing it in the flesh. She'd thought after everything that Kurt would finally have those things under control, and the fact was, he had, as long as Blaine was safe and okay and there. But having his husband -- his whole world -- forget that their marriage even existed? That he'd seen Kurt again since the fight that had cost them everything? It had to be ripping Kurt apart in every way

[justbeingaqueen]

Kurt just gave a dry, humourless laugh, eyes looking around frantically like the very environment was aggravating him more. And it was. He hated hospitals. Nothing good ever happened in them. He had felt like that since he was a child and his mom had been in and out of one, until one day, she didn't come out again. Then all the time he spent in one after he tried to take his own life, and now with Blaine. Beautiful Blaine who had no control over what his head did to him, and now it was betraying him in the worst possible way. Kurt felt sick inside, panicking that Blaine would never remember their reunion and what they managed to claw back between them. For the first time in ten years, Kurt was finally starting to feel happy again. Blaine was sick, sure, and Kurt tolerated sitting vigil at his bedside because he needed to be close to him, but he just wanted them to be home, cuddled up together, healing together, remembering all those wonderful things they fell in love with each other for a decade ago

[couturejourno]

Leslie was terrified, if she were honest with herself. And it wasn't being terrified that Blaine wasn't going to make it nearly so much as that Kurt's resolve to stay strong would weaken with every passing day that Blaine suffered from amnesia. Her heart was broken for her friend, and seeing him hurt so much was something that was still new to her. She'd never seen him hurt before Blaine was back in his life because he'd never given her a chance. The heartache and the pain and the addictions and the sickness that had firmly planted themselves in his life were never visible to her. And now that they were, she wasn't sure how best to be there for Kurt, so she remained quiet for a short time

[justbeingaqueen]

"They don't know what it is. They think it's something neurological, but they need to do more tests. It... it can't be a coincidence that his mind has gone back to a time right before I came into his life again..." The paranoia was already setting in. It always came hand-in-hand with the cravings. Not just about the fact he couldn't get drugs, but about a lot of different things. Kurt was never a paranoid person in the past. He made a conscious decision to own who he was from a young age and paranoia only came when you were insecure about something. The shrinks told him it was a link to the depression and anxiety, but right now, he didn't feel like he could make it through anything without something to help get him through. It felt like it was too much to cope with and there was too much happening before he could process it and deal with it. It was Blaine himself who had been helping him take the smaller steps on the bigger things to make it through them, and now Blaine wasn't there... not really