When I finish writing this I am going to buy myself some ice cream LIKE A BOSS

[bad_latin]

I have come out of whatever sadness was knocking me to my knees earlier in the week. Over the past few months I have been having a problem where I will start crying uncontrollably for no apparent reason. It happens a lot when I'm at work, and also a lot during choir practice before church. This is pretty scary. I've always been a crier, I've always

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[fmsv]

Wow.

I wish I had advice, but I don't. I've run into a few similar issues myself (none involving kink parties, as I've never been to one, nor do I think I ever will), but I don't have any answers about being comfortable with attention or not.

(Pushing "Post Comment" now, before I decide to just delete this.)

[bad_latin]

Thanks for posting -- a lot. It really helps to know I'm not the only person who has stuff like this banging around inside their skull.

[fmsv]

Thank *you* for posting about it in the first place. It helps me too to know that I'm not the only one either. (And thank you for thanking me too; it helps me to know I'm not being an utter idiot, as I all too frequently think I am (rightly or wrongly))

They could have already been there.

[bloodsong1]

Or it could be that as you've grown, you've realized you don't want the attention but are having a very difficult time making the switch. I don't have any advice, per say, but I do have broad shoulders for a short chick and you're free to cry on them anytime.

Also, I have a beautiful phrase for your collection. It has really helped me through my grieving process.

The soul would have no rainbow if the eyes had no tears. Laurel Burch, artist, from a notebook with her 1999 self portrait on the cover.

[bad_latin]

*internet hugs* Your friendship and comments really mean an awful lot to me.

[kdsorceress]

"...And to enjoy the traveler's fine sense of crisis."
The Death of Justina, John Cheever

This is the only thing that stayed from my American Lit class in college.

I am too tired to have responses to the rest of the post, but I did read it, and I understand some of the attention weirdness.

~Sor

[bad_latin]

I need to read some John Cheever. Lately I am on a big memoirs-by-writers kick, and they all mention him. He is throwing himself in my path, literatureally. (pretend that is a word)

[kdsorceress]

It totally sounds like a word to me!

I don't remember the rest of the piece at all, but I had to stop in the middle of reading it, and write that one line down for myself. It's beautifully accurate.

~Sor