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Dec 08, 2005 06:35

Sequence of events:

Ronnie called last night.

He picked me up at 9:30PM.

We went to the local pub.

We chatted for two hours.

On the way home he held my hand.

I didn't let go.

We sat in his car and talked for a bit outside of my apartment.

He leaned over and kissed me.

And I didn't stop him.

I feel dirty.

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charmo December 7 2005, 05:06:21 UTC

whoa

italian race car driver hottie ronnie? are you planning to tell J, or do you two have an agreement (while you're physically apart, you're not really together)? don't say if you can't or don't want to.

but i'm jealous, if anything. i slept with a boy and he hadn't even kissed me. that is dirty. oh man why did i just remind myself.

badhairdays December 7 2005, 06:53:01 UTC

Yeah but there's a little bit more to the story. Something could've happened, and it almost happened, but it didn't. Let me just say that the cops patrolling the streets at that time saved me from doing anything really stupid (he was parked in an awkward place, sort-of on the driveway, sort of on the street). I already did something that I can't reverse, and I'm terribly ashamed of it, but at the same time, I'm like "WOWWWWW."I'm soooooooooooo stupid. I have a freaking BF. And no we didn't have any sort of agreement....but I've already questioned the future of our relationship pre-Ronnie. Ahhhhh I don't know what to do. It's SO HARD when you're thousands of miles away from your BF. It's lonely here, and and.... gosh, I'm pathetic. And for goodness sakes, he's a blonde, blue-eyed, and an Italian race car champion IMPORT!!! He also wanted me (hopefully not just physically, but Italian men --- no one will ever understand their motives ( ... )

charmo December 7 2005, 17:14:44 UTC

You're not at all pathetic -- serious long-distance relationships are (but shouldn't be) a test of will and morals, heh. I think we're just too young to be concerning ourselves with whether someone is "the One" or holding on to something already slipping away. Not to apply that to your situation, nor am I arguing this on pure physical needs -- but companionship! I think it's COMPLETELY fair and justified on your part that you went for it ( ... )

badhairdays December 9 2005, 13:41:57 UTC

Word ( ... )

whiteyellow December 7 2005, 21:06:19 UTC

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badhairdays December 8 2005, 00:32:50 UTC

HI JAKE! See ya in two weeks.

..............uhhhhhhhhhh =X