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As I sit here now, thinking about my lovers over the years, I realize something. I have been damn lucky. Nearly every guy I have been with in recent memory has either been really hot, really good in bed or both. Even certain ex's I dislike muchly for personal reasons, were quite excellent in bed, hitting the spot once or more times nearly every time. I remember telling him once, after having sex, that I hadn't cum, and that it was OK. that I wasnt going to every time. and it was ok, cause when it was good it was awsome, and it was awsome often. I remember sitting in Hooters with him and his friends and someone made some kind of crack about him not being able to satisfy, and we both jumped to his defense, and there was just such a level of mutual satisfaction about our sex life at that moment, it was great. Not to mention he was into bondage as well, and I was able to explore a wee bit. He was more into it than me, and admitedly I was not comfortable at all times. But the experience was a good growing one:) And the one after him, he was awsome too. and seriously, he was, to quote Emma Thompson, "Sex on legs", physically looking. Mind you, she was saying it about Liam Neeson, but you get the picture. He wasn't quite as good in bed, but he was great, and the way he always seemed to be so proud of his 'work' really made me smile. Like he thought he was the only one who had done that to me before. Maybe I misread it, but hey, I enjoyed it, he enjoyed it, and we totally devirginized my car on many levels. (but not the backseat....that hasnt gone..yet;))
Before both of those boys was Johnny, and the truth of the matter is, that I hold a special place in my heart for him. Above the sex, above the romantic intrests on my side, I felt a connection to him, and his sexual knowlege that I hadnt really felt before. I really liked virgins, or near virgins for a long while, and we both acknowlege I taught him much of what he knew for a long while. I recently "saw" him again, and the fact is, that it seemed so different, much like the very first time. I was saddened. Because in comparison to my current lovers, he really had fallen back and possibly forgotten much that I had tried to instill in him.
Now I have two lovers. One of them is strong, sexy, and truly irresistable. I can't help myself when I am around him, and vice versa. I love spending time with him, though we are both busy, so sadly we dont get to spend much day time time together. But the nights we burn up the sheets make me sweat. He can easily win an award for size, and for endurance and for the use of his hands. It's quite vanilla, but he drives me mad with passion. And the other, well, I'm his bitch. and I got the collar to prove it. We're exploring BDSM together, he has the tools, but neither of us have too much experience, and he is so sweet, kind, and has never pushed me past my limits. Our vanilla sex is pretty good too. and he is a photographer and has been taking photos of me and he's actually someone I am truly dating, and in a few months, who knows where we will be.
These men, save for Johnny, all have long hair. Do I gravitate toward long haired men specifically? or is it coincidence? I dont know. I do know they are all quite attractive, and in the case of a few of them, I wonder how I got so lucky as to have them as my friend/lovers or potential boyfriends.
What was the point of this post? I don't have a clue. But I wrote it.
Love,
Sharmel