Private Paper Journal - Ten
[Once again, written in small print in her paper journal, unable to be hacked unless stolen or read at hand.]
Journal,
What a horrible day and night. All the fuss from yesterday that had me so worried was Doumeki. Drank himself sick, then worse. I hate this place right now. It seems to have changed everything. Nothing feels right anymore. The prophets turn blind here and the stoic seem to fall. I’ve never wanted to go home more then I have today.
I miss home. At least there I knew what I was doing, where and how. It was easy to avoid things, and I had other things to use as reasons. Things I can’t pull upon here. How do I explain to yet another room mate that I don’t want to meet with them often because it could be bad for them? I tried to be so careful with Ichijou-kun. Thankfully I don’t effect him, but still… now I have someone else to… worry about. Riku? I’ve been such a horrible person. I haven’t even gone out to introduce myself. Found my setting and things, hide away in the room they put me in, and that was that. I haven’t really gone out to do much of anything but to get Tanpopo water. Haven’t been hungry or anything either. Especially not today.
Tomorrow though, I will greet him properly, if I can. Or at least say hello.
I’m glad Doumeki-kun is alright now though. I am grateful to the Islands ability to bring one back from death and so I guess that in it’s self is a good thing. I’m still worried about him though. Him and Watanuki-kun. Something isn’t right between them. He’s hurting him. Why can’t he see it?
I do hope everything is settled and figured out. I don’t want Ichijou-kun hunted down either. That’s horrible! And to die a painful death and be reborn again over and over would be horrible too. Has anyone done that here yet? Just kept someone and killed them over and over?
And why am I thinking on that. My mind is wandering to horrible things. It’s really not healthy. Crying this much isn’t healthy either though. Blaming it on this horrible romance novel only works so many times. Speaking of which, I almost finished one of my books. I wonder if a person can trade in books at that place. That would be nice.
They are saying there is a new presence on the Island. Ichijou-kun mentioned another vampire that he didn’t know. I wonder what that means, and why there are so many on this island. It seems to attract any number of interesting people. Also, someone seems to know Mokona here now? I miss his big eyes and chipper personality. I miss a lot about home though.
Doumeki said he was coming over early tomorrow, so I really should get some sleep. It’s so late as it is, but I just can’t settle down. Maybe after I scold Doumeki a bit I can go out. Wander around for a bit. I can’t seem to find a job I can do here that wouldn’t hurt people one way or another, so maybe I’ll go wander about and look for something interesting.
I need to do something. I feel horrible.
Journal,
What a horrible day and night. All the fuss from yesterday that had me so worried was Doumeki. Drank himself sick, then worse. I hate this place right now. It seems to have changed everything. Nothing feels right anymore. The prophets turn blind here and the stoic seem to fall. I’ve never wanted to go home more then I have today.
I miss home. At least there I knew what I was doing, where and how. It was easy to avoid things, and I had other things to use as reasons. Things I can’t pull upon here. How do I explain to yet another room mate that I don’t want to meet with them often because it could be bad for them? I tried to be so careful with Ichijou-kun. Thankfully I don’t effect him, but still… now I have someone else to… worry about. Riku? I’ve been such a horrible person. I haven’t even gone out to introduce myself. Found my setting and things, hide away in the room they put me in, and that was that. I haven’t really gone out to do much of anything but to get Tanpopo water. Haven’t been hungry or anything either. Especially not today.
Tomorrow though, I will greet him properly, if I can. Or at least say hello.
I’m glad Doumeki-kun is alright now though. I am grateful to the Islands ability to bring one back from death and so I guess that in it’s self is a good thing. I’m still worried about him though. Him and Watanuki-kun. Something isn’t right between them. He’s hurting him. Why can’t he see it?
I do hope everything is settled and figured out. I don’t want Ichijou-kun hunted down either. That’s horrible! And to die a painful death and be reborn again over and over would be horrible too. Has anyone done that here yet? Just kept someone and killed them over and over?
And why am I thinking on that. My mind is wandering to horrible things. It’s really not healthy. Crying this much isn’t healthy either though. Blaming it on this horrible romance novel only works so many times. Speaking of which, I almost finished one of my books. I wonder if a person can trade in books at that place. That would be nice.
They are saying there is a new presence on the Island. Ichijou-kun mentioned another vampire that he didn’t know. I wonder what that means, and why there are so many on this island. It seems to attract any number of interesting people. Also, someone seems to know Mokona here now? I miss his big eyes and chipper personality. I miss a lot about home though.
Doumeki said he was coming over early tomorrow, so I really should get some sleep. It’s so late as it is, but I just can’t settle down. Maybe after I scold Doumeki a bit I can go out. Wander around for a bit. I can’t seem to find a job I can do here that wouldn’t hurt people one way or another, so maybe I’ll go wander about and look for something interesting.
I need to do something. I feel horrible.