Yosuke's palms were sweating, his stomach felt sick and heavy, and he concentrated on putting one foot in front of the other, walking just a half-step behind Souji so that he could see him in his peripheral vision, looking strong and determined and everything that Yosuke felt he was not. He hated this part of himself, the part that doubted his own abilities and even his own worth - the part that had led to him standing naked in front of a mirror with a camera and a broken heart. His hands were beginning to shake. He balled them into fists, tried to mask it, and when Souji glanced back at him, checking on him, Yosuke only nodded, pressing forward. Souji nodded back and Yosuke wished so much that he could grab Souji's hand, squeeze it hard, maybe slow his racing heart a little... but he couldn't.
That was another thing Yosuke hated about himself - the fear. He could fight monsters that would kill him if he let his guard down, he could throw himself in the way of a certainly lethal attack against his friends, but he could not hold his
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"Then let's not stand here and think about it anymore."
And just like that, Souji was opening the door, walking into the classroom like it was his own, and Yosuke watched the expression on Seagull-Mori-whoever's face change from bewilderment at the sight of Souji to realization at the sight of Yosuke and finally to apprehension bordering on fear when he made the connection. Yosuke would have thoroughly enjoyed it if he didn't feel that, at any minute, he was going to wet himself. The classroom was completely silent and Yosuke wondered if anyone else could hear his heart pounding in his chest. The hair at the back of Souji's neck was damp and slightly curling. So... he really is nervous too"Mori-kun
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That was another thing Yosuke hated about himself - the fear. He could fight monsters that would kill him if he let his guard down, he could throw himself in the way of a certainly lethal attack against his friends, but he could not hold his ( ... )
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"Yeah. Yeah. I'm sure."
"Then let's not stand here and think about it anymore."
And just like that, Souji was opening the door, walking into the classroom like it was his own, and Yosuke watched the expression on Seagull-Mori-whoever's face change from bewilderment at the sight of Souji to realization at the sight of Yosuke and finally to apprehension bordering on fear when he made the connection. Yosuke would have thoroughly enjoyed it if he didn't feel that, at any minute, he was going to wet himself. The classroom was completely silent and Yosuke wondered if anyone else could hear his heart pounding in his chest. The hair at the back of Souji's neck was damp and slightly curling. So... he really is nervous too"Mori-kun ( ... )
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