suck ur fingers if u r realYou know the kind of kid Yosuke Hanamura strikes me as? The kind of kid who is achingly, painfully, desperate for positive attention of any kind (even from strangers). And while his own physical attractiveness isn't all of what he wants validated, he's a skinny teenage boy (and one who seems to spend quite a bit of time on his appearance) and body insecurity is kinda part of that deal
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Thread 2/?
anonymous
January 29 2012, 03:27:40 UTC
Just like that, they had a new target. Just like that, it was over. Yosuke didn't have friends, but no more did he have tormentors, and somehow it was enough. Two weeks after Nagoya came, Yosuke caught his eye as he was surrounded by kids poking at him with chopsticks, turning over his lunch, stepping on the snacks his mother had carefully packed. Nagoya's eyes were pleading, help me, please, and Yosuke had... walked away. He had gotten up and walked away and gone to the bathroom and sank to his knees against the door of the stall, hands over his face, trembling. He couldn't - wouldn't - help him - if he helped him it would start all over again, they'd remember he existed, they'd remember he was there, they'd - Yosuke had to keep his distance from Nagoya. Eventually Nagoya stopped looking at him, stopped looking at anyone, just kept his head down and tried to be invisible. If he was invisible, he was okay. Yosuke had learned that lesson a long time ago. If he was invisible, he was okay. If he just picked up his bike and fixed the tire
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Thread 3/?
anonymous
January 29 2012, 03:28:34 UTC
Well, that wasn't entirely true. He hadn't lost Souji. He would have held onto him until all the strength and all the tears had died out of his heart, but Souji had left instead, fucking left him, and all the phone calls and visits in the world couldn't erase the ache in the pit of his stomach. It hurt, it hurt so badly he could scream, and sometimes he did, riding his bike faster and faster without stopping until he was miles away from anything he knew, until he was somewhere he could throw himself on the ground and sob into the dirt. Sure, the others missed him too, but they didn't have the same memories, the ones he replayed fragments of over and over as the wind blew his hair in soft gusts.
--Souji's fingers ghosting over his ribs and a kiss to his hipbone and--
--Souji's lips on his forehead, 'Yosuke, I lo'--
--curled up in Yosuke's futon with their lips barely touching--
--'Yosuke, I love you'--Yosuke loved him, too, so much it left him raw. He should have known better than to let this happen. He should have known better
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Thread 4/?
anonymous
January 29 2012, 03:29:18 UTC
There was the dream where he ate air, everything he ate was air, and after a while he became air too, floating above everyone else and watching them long enough to notice they never seemed to realize he was gone. His mother forgot him, his father seemed glad to be able to forget him, the useless girly-boy who at age 11 had told his father he loved him and was told never to say something so ridiculous ever again, that only women said things like that, did Yosuke want to be a little girl? Maybe he was kind of a girl sometimes. Maybe he had fucking liked it when Souji held him, and so what? It wasn't like his father would ever know, wasn't like he could ever tell him. He never saw Souji in that dream. The part of Yosuke that watched his mother's old romance movies under the blankets on Sundays when the other kids were outside playing wanted to believe that maybe Souji wouldn't want to exist anymore if Yosuke didn't exist either. The more realistic part of him believed that Souji had just ceased to remember him at all
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Thread 5/?
anonymous
January 29 2012, 03:30:49 UTC
On a different night, Yosuke thought maybe he would have watched the feed, probably jerked off to it too. He didn't know what that meant. He liked girls, mostly, he though, but then he also liked Souji, and he liked Souji better than girls, and he definitely liked looking at Souji, but in a different way than he liked looking at these other guys, but he was still looking at the other guys even though he preferred to look at the girls, unless of course it was Souji, but sometimes these other guys reminded him of Souji, or sometimes he just really liked looking at their fucking dicks, and after a while the whole thing just gave him a headache and he stopped trying to figure it out. Did everyone go through this? Did everyone sit around touching themselves in front of a glowing screen, wondering whether they'd rather fuck or be fucked?
Yosuke quickly bookmarked the thread, english notes, turned off his computer before he could think about it too much, and unplugged it for good measure. He fell asleep on his back, covers kicked to the side and legs spread as though his body was trying to expose itself even subconsciously, like it knew what he was doing and was trying to tell him that if he was going to do it, then he should just fucking do it, stop dicking around and get to the dick already. ... If the comments were good. If people wanted to see it. If people thought he was--
'--beautiful, Yosuke,' wrapping his arms around Souji's shoulders and----worth seeing. Maybe he'd beat the kid with the livestream without even having a livestream. Unlikely, sure, but his type was popular now, even more popular than the girls, and you could never be sure what this audience would like. It could be anything. It could even be him. At least it might be a distraction, something he
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Re: Thread 6/?
anonymous
January 29 2012, 03:58:44 UTC
fapfapfapfapfapfap
well, not really fapping, but very impressed so far. not op, but been thinking about this prompt. so happy someone is filling. would f5 forever but have a mac.
Re: Thread 6/?
anonymous
January 29 2012, 09:55:25 UTC
This is so, so good so far, authornon! I was really excited by this prompt when the OP first posted it, and you are more than doing it justice so far. Seriously, this is so painfully Yosuke, and the authentic 4chan formatting is a nice touch. Somehow I get the feeling he's still going to be bullied on the internet. :(
Re: Thread 6/?
anonymous
January 29 2012, 20:59:29 UTC
Coming out of lurking to say, this fill is amazing. Every emotional response is so real for Yosuke, and it's just a little bit painful how much I relate to the long distance relationship part. So curious to see what happens next, and I'm loving the authentic 4chan format. Authornon, you're awesome.
Thread 7/?
anonymous
January 30 2012, 02:35:21 UTC
Yosuke didn't get around to checking the thread until just before bed two nights later. Contrary to his plan of forgetting about it, he woke up thinking about it, almost checked it before school but forced himself to leave the computer unplugged and save it for later. The term had just started and he had already barely passed the first exams, squeaking by with what he thought were probably pity grades, bad enough to warrant a call to his mother to ask if he was sick or "having problems." He couldn't remember a time when he didn't have "problems." His mother had apologized for him, and that had been awful, having to see his mother bow on the phone and apologize for his stupidity. He should have known that material. It was all review, all stuff he had studied with Souji until he knew it up one side and down the other, but Souji had taken that with him too
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Thread 8/?
anonymous
January 30 2012, 02:37:03 UTC
He briefly considered joining a club, maybe meet some new people, but that thought only lasted a few seconds before he laughed out loud at how ridiculous it was. There wasn't a single person in Yasogami who didn't already know who he was, and there wasn't a single person in Yasogami who wanted to get to know him any better. Kou and Daisuke were alright, but he was about as athletic as a dying praying mantis and he wouldn't last on the soccer field, couldn't play basketball, not without thinking of... He loved music, but not school band music, didn't understand the point of drama - who needed more tragedy? - and on the days he wasn't working, he spent the afternoons holed up in his room, reorganizing his mp3s, blaring music loud enough so that he didn't have to think, composing emails to Souji and never sending most of them, trying to figure out how many emails he could send and how often he could send them before he became annoying. When Souji was home, Yosuke would usually meet him on IM, send him links and show him stupid things
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Thread 9/?
anonymous
January 30 2012, 02:49:16 UTC
Seta Souji Apr 09, 2012 15:34 PM
Hey. yo What are you doing? nm watchin sum gross tv show.....u? Thinking about you. haha u are so weird call me l8r ok I was going to anyway. I miss you. me 2 so much Are you doing okay? yeah im fine not gonna forget 2 breathe i promise Okay. I'll still call you later, just to make sure. u mean so u can try to reset me if i forget Resuscitate. That's a good vocabulary word. ugh u are so lame <3 Do you need help with algebra? wat? omg no u r a huge dork ttyl partner <4 THAT DOESNT EVEN MEAN NETHING <5Yosuke put his phone back into his pocket and laid back down, one hand over his eyes in case his mother walked back in. He could claim a piece of dust in his eye that way. He knew all mothers worried about their kids, but he thought his mother worried about him a little bit more, and it made him feel bad, guilty, like if he was
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Thread 10/?
anonymous
January 30 2012, 02:50:11 UTC
He missed eating with Souji. He missed Souji coming in with a bento he had made the night before and asking Yosuke to eat lunch with him, just the two of them, and they'd sit shoulder-to-shoulder with their feet dangling off the roof. Yosuke loved whatever Souji made, partly because it was just fucking delicious, mostly because he had made it just for him. Yosuke would take off his headphones, jack up the volume and lay them down on his lap so Souji could hear the music too, and he'd tell Souji about the new band he discovered and Souji would tell him about the magic tricks he taught Nanako and Yosuke would ask him to teach him too, if only so that their hands would brush as Souji demonstrated his newest illusion. After lunch Souji would reach for his hand again and entwine their fingers and pretend to read Yosuke's palm.
'This is the love line. It's very important.'
'What does it mean?'
'The stronger it appears, the more strongly you love somebody. And yours... is really visible.'
>> ❑ Anonymous 04/09/12(Mon)21:36 No.127223350 op u coming back or what?!?!?
No. No, he was definitely not coming back. Yosuke could think of a million reasons why he was not coming back, why it had been a terrible idea, why he should delete the bookmark and let the thread fade into obscurity and pray to every deity he could remember that nobody had saved that pic to their hard drives. But these comments... he felt kind of... god, he was such a slut, such a fucking whore to even be considering this. Souji would hate this - but Souji wasn't here. He tried to imagine how he'd feel, if he knew Souji was doing something like this, but he couldn't even picture it. Souji would never do something like this. Souji deserved someone who would never do something like this
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Yosuke realized that could read either as a question or a command. It didn't really matter. He supposed that, deep down, he meant it as both.
>> ❑ Anonymous 04/09/12(Mon)22:12 No.127223613 still too skinny
Yosuke bit his lip hard and stared at the screen until the words blurred together into a watery puddle. He was putting his body out there, his totally bare naked body, and all this asshole could say was that he was too skinny?! He could have at least tried to say something nice, or maybe he could have just not said anything, but Yosuke knew better than to expect that. Fuck, he had made the same kinds of comments, even worse, and maybe those people had been just like him, lonely and scared half to death and just wanting someone to notice them, wanting someone to... to want them. He was going to refresh one more time, just one more, and if nobody cared then he didn't care, and he'd never go to that site again and he'd throw
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http://badbadbathhouse.livejournal.com/1488.html?thread=8550096#t8550096
suck ur fingers if u r realYou know the kind of kid Yosuke Hanamura strikes me as? The kind of kid who is achingly, painfully, desperate for positive attention of any kind (even from strangers). And while his own physical attractiveness isn't all of what he wants validated, he's a skinny teenage boy (and one who seems to spend quite a bit of time on his appearance) and body insecurity is kinda part of that deal ( ... )
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--Souji's fingers ghosting over his ribs and a kiss to his hipbone and--
--Souji's lips on his forehead, 'Yosuke, I lo'--
--curled up in Yosuke's futon with their lips barely touching--
--'Yosuke, I love you'--Yosuke loved him, too, so much it left him raw. He should have known better than to let this happen. He should have known better ( ... )
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>> ❑ Anonymous 04/08/12(Sun)04:21 No.127070810
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livestream.com/aghsayhf
>> ❑ Anonymous 04/08/12(Sun)04:21 No.127070814
>>127070798
lol like u even have 1
>> ❑ Kin 04/08/12(Sun)04:22 No. ( ... )
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❑ Anonymous 04/08/12(Sun)04:51 No.127071289 [Reply]
;)
Yosuke quickly bookmarked the thread, english notes, turned off his computer before he could think about it too much, and unplugged it for good measure. He fell asleep on his back, covers kicked to the side and legs spread as though his body was trying to expose itself even subconsciously, like it knew what he was doing and was trying to tell him that if he was going to do it, then he should just fucking do it, stop dicking around and get to the dick already. ... If the comments were good. If people wanted to see it. If people thought he was--
'--beautiful, Yosuke,' wrapping his arms around Souji's shoulders and----worth seeing. Maybe he'd beat the kid with the livestream without even having a livestream. Unlikely, sure, but his type was popular now, even more popular than the girls, and you could never be sure what this audience would like. It could be anything. It could even be him. At least it might be a distraction, something he ( ... )
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well, not really fapping, but very impressed so far. not op, but been thinking about this prompt. so happy someone is filling. would f5 forever but have a mac.
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Apr 09, 2012 15:34 PM
Hey.
yo
What are you doing?
nm watchin sum gross tv show.....u?
Thinking about you.
haha u are so weird
call me l8r ok
I was going to anyway.
I miss you.
me 2
so much
Are you doing okay?
yeah im fine
not gonna forget 2 breathe i promise
Okay. I'll still call you later, just to make sure.
u mean so u can try to reset me if i forget
Resuscitate. That's a good vocabulary word.
ugh u are so lame
<3
Do you need help with algebra?
wat?
omg no
u r a huge dork
ttyl partner
<4
THAT DOESNT EVEN MEAN NETHING
<5Yosuke put his phone back into his pocket and laid back down, one hand over his eyes in case his mother walked back in. He could claim a piece of dust in his eye that way. He knew all mothers worried about their kids, but he thought his mother worried about him a little bit more, and it made him feel bad, guilty, like if he was ( ... )
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'This is the love line. It's very important.'
'What does it mean?'
'The stronger it appears, the more strongly you love somebody. And yours... is really visible.'
'Does it really mean that?'
'It could.'
--Souji ( ... )
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lets see your dick ;)
>> ❑ Anonymous 04/09/12(Mon)21:34 No.127223327
gross too skinny
>> ❑ Anonymous 04/09/12(Mon)21:34 No.127223334
qt op
>> ❑ Anonymous 04/09/12(Mon)21:35 No.127223342
>>127223327
stfu fatass
>> ❑ Anonymous 04/09/12(Mon)21:36 No.127223350
op u coming back or what?!?!?
No. No, he was definitely not coming back. Yosuke could think of a million reasons why he was not coming back, why it had been a terrible idea, why he should delete the bookmark and let the thread fade into obscurity and pray to every deity he could remember that nobody had saved that pic to their hard drives. But these comments... he felt kind of... god, he was such a slut, such a fucking whore to even be considering this. Souji would hate this - but Souji wasn't here. He tried to imagine how he'd feel, if he knew Souji was doing something like this, but he couldn't even picture it. Souji would never do something like this. Souji deserved someone who would never do something like this ( ... )
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❑ Anonymous 04/09/12(Mon)22:12 No.127223607 [Reply]
remember me
Yosuke realized that could read either as a question or a command. It didn't really matter. He supposed that, deep down, he meant it as both.
>> ❑ Anonymous 04/09/12(Mon)22:12 No.127223613
still too skinny
Yosuke bit his lip hard and stared at the screen until the words blurred together into a watery puddle. He was putting his body out there, his totally bare naked body, and all this asshole could say was that he was too skinny?! He could have at least tried to say something nice, or maybe he could have just not said anything, but Yosuke knew better than to expect that. Fuck, he had made the same kinds of comments, even worse, and maybe those people had been just like him, lonely and scared half to death and just wanting someone to notice them, wanting someone to... to want them. He was going to refresh one more time, just one more, and if nobody cared then he didn't care, and he'd never go to that site again and he'd throw ( ... )
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